can't believe it's going to be over soon because it still feels like common test was just last month...haha or maybe i'm just slow, but either way, YAY!!!i think my sentences make no sense but can't u feel my happiness, happiness of possibly getting retained...I really did study for maths and chem. perhaps it was insufficient but i really thought it was enough to at least get a D...*sigh* econs was bad too since i couldn't finish writing my essay...let's see, i wrote 2 paragraphs for a 13m question...hmm...and chem. initially i thought i had alot of time but suddenly "poof" i was left with 15mins for my last question plus many many blanks in front and of course i became very flustered and couldn't think straight anymore...chem mcq was like a guessing game instead of an exam, there was almost no time to think through any of the questions...For section b, first thing i did was read option 1.if option 1 was wrong, immediate reaction was to choose C.haha me and my weird logics.

I really wonder what i'm good for or what kind of job i want to hold next time. I'm only sure that i wouldn't want to be involved in setting up of sound systems and whatsoever.I think my mind's quite made up this time. I shall wait for promos to end first before i quit.I wanted to quit like few mths ago because i felt very useless and more like a burden, especially during the camp or times when we had to do duty and something will definitely go wrong. but i told myself that i had to perservere. i can't give up so easily and i was so sure that i could learn it like evryone else but i think i was wrong.I also thought maybe i should start to adapt and get to know other people better rather than just sticking to a group of friends.It's been almost a year since i joined and it's not like i never tried to fit in or attend whatever outings...maybe i haven done enough or maybe i'm just irritating and hard to get along with?ya i guess it's me...hmm now i know how the ips felt when we were all busy with syf...now i really understand the importance of trying to bond every single one together so we can become one. It shall be my new goal after promos!