- 9:20 PM
i seriously dont understand why i'm in such a lousy mood now and neither do i understand why i dont want tomorrow to come.it doesn't make any sense,does it?
pe has become my most detested lesson in nj.it's like the makeME feel crappy session.i know that sounds damn egoistic but well that's what blogs are for right,it's all about you and your wonderful life.anyway back to pe.as usual i stood at the side and refused to even stick out my hand to intercept the ball when it was within reach.i ran away to other parts of the court when i saw people coming towards my side.i hate pe.it's such freaking dangerous lesson.i sprained my ankle TWICE this year during pe.what kinda crap is this lah.okay maybe it's my fault that my ankle is beyond repair but it is damn scary when all i can see during pe are images of me stupidly knocking into someone,falling and therefore spraining my ankle again.going to the tie2 da2 person everytime is traumatising and listening to my mum's "WHAT?!?!you sprained your ankle again?!?!?!in the future u cannot walk then how?" is bloody irritating.how the fcuk am i supposed to know how.it's not like i want to sprain it.rraaahhh!!!!and i can't go for ballet for a week after every sprain.even when i do go for class after a week,it's damn painful at the end of the class.i miss dancing,i miss going on en pointe.i really want to dance like how i used to be able to.although i wasn't good, at least i felt good.why are my ankles so useless.regardless of whether it's major or minor, i sprained my ankle 5 to 6 times this year.try matching that.
i think this is probably one of my most vulgar entries even though i dont think it is because i've restrained myself from typing more.i can't remember since when i started all this swearing again.under the influence of my sis i guess.tomorrow is such a bad bad day =(
