Wednesday, September 13, 2006
- 4:36 PM
i'm feeling quite light headed now.literally.
the stupid prelims is taking its toll on me.i dont understand why i need at least 6h of sleep now when i used to be able to survive on 4-5.must be the stress!and and and i hate to admit but i'm growing F A T.my sis cursed me that i'll become 60 by the end of As.it's quite ridiculous but i wont be ruling out that possibility =S and it fucking sucks when i thought i was quite prepared but in the end i freaked out every time i flipped open the exam paper.it's not like i didnt study.okay maybe not as hard as some but i really studied ALOT this time round compared to other times.it's fucking irritating to know that i'm jack of NO trades and therefore thinking of being a master would be CRIME.
anyway i was just thinking,is it very sad to grey alone and not have anyone by your side for you to scream at or to discuss trivial things as you wait for your turn to enter another realm?
well i feel like i'm slowly fading away and becoming a mountain tortoise.maybe i should just live in some hill where i'll have a small house made of bamboo (so the roof will leak), toilet with no flush (maybe i'll find a snake in it someday then i'll get bitten on the butt and get poisoned to death), rear some chickens (and derive pleasure from chasing them around and thinking of how to cook them for dinner when i can't even cook rice properly) and ya just bum around and do retarded things.or maybe i'll become a famous poet like Li Bai who lived in isolation (did he?) that's why he could write so well! you know,most of the time you have to be damn depressed before you can be dramatic enough to write something that is earth shattering.OKAY THAT SHALL BE MY DREAM FOR NOW.
