Monday, July 23, 2007
- 2:29 AM
i've been bumming around for a week...
not that i'm complaining.freedom is getting sweeter by the day.i guess i should have listened to claire when she told me that i'll get used to doing nothing.but working and knowing that my bank account was growing fatter every month was really great.this should be my face now $_$ (haha if you can tell that it's a face). i've been gym-ing, going for class dinner, shopping and meeting people instead of staring at PeTS, which is a tax computer programme. some photos from my last day of work
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yupp that's about it.hmm i'm glad that i accepted the job even though it meant that i couldnt go out with justin as much as i wanted to before he enlisted.i learnt so much and i'm thankful that i had some wonderful aisle mates, seniors and fellow vts!xinyu was within talking distance and i definitely miss being able to talk to her every day. my table mate was interesting and i must say that i've never met anyone like him.the 2 seniors at our aisle were approachable and as cranky as xinyu and i.our aisle was always "alive" when all the managers were gone.i'll also miss jing yi calling me gg, agnes helping me bully jing yi, xue ni popping over to our aisle to get some fresh air and my pretty, patient senior jee min.i think working there for 3.5 months was just nice.if i stayed longer, i would have lost myself and my personality in the growing "file everest".i must admit that it's not easy to achieve a work-life balance. my life was so routined.wake-up, office, home after 12hrs at raffles place,dinner and shower, sleep. and the whole cycle repeats itself the next day.it's like the rhythm of my life. i left before i started feeling like i was being treated as a computation churning machine so at least i took away with me some really beautiful memories =)
well enough of that.
i wish that i could turn back time because my words always seem to come out wrong.maybe it's because of my limtied vocabulary or simply because my mouth decides shoot out chains of nonsense before my brain can filter out the junk.i'm sorry if i offended anyone but that was never my intention and contrary to popular belief, i am a peace loving person (whacking people, certain male individuals in particular, does not justify me to be otherwise).well no man is infallible and i guess making mistakes just proves that i dont come from some random planet in the galaxy.
it's 3plus now, the perfect time for me to continue rattling on because i'm at my whackiest.it's good to have a spoilt tag board so no one can comment on my insanity.
i cant believe it's been EIGHT months since the big As ended.i wanted to accomplish so many things, with learning how to cook at the top of my list. some other things i wanted to achieve were doing voluntary work and catching up with friends whom i've drifted away from.but sometimes we just take time for granted."so-and-so/this-and-that can wait lah.i've plenty of time."but the thing is, do we?the future is so uncertain.
and this is when i start thinking about the past although it's not healthy to live in our own history.but why should i put myself through the agony of worrying about things that i probabaly have no control over now.i believe in fate and with a stroke of luck, we can expect the impossible.sometimes what's most difficult is seeing the simplicity in certain matters.when we want something so desperately, we force and we might get it but after awhile we discover that it's not something that we really want.i always thought that i had to fight for everything that i wanted so i wouldnt have any regrets and i'll cherish the fruits of my labour even more.but my affinity with justin was kind of unexplainable.okay effort was put in for us to work but we started off with a simple study session because the rest of the class who went for lunch that day decided to throw away their books to catch a movie.destiny, blessing, call it anything you want to.but we cannot deny that there's a greater divine power at work.it is quite amazing how we only started talking at the end of 2 years when he lives 10mins away and 3-4 houses away from thomson plaza, the place i used to go to almost every day.so take things easy yea =) haha that was a weak attempt to convince myself that i should stop expecting too much.
uni is starting in about 2 weeks.how i dread it.the thought of a new school, the process of making new friends, facing exams and ever-ending assignments and getting used to living away from home is not as inviting as how some might picture it to be.but no!i have to psycho myself.UNIVERSITY WILL BE A BLAST!ALL THE WAYYYY!!!!
GRRRR!!!!
i miss my sister and my room seems too empty now.i miss all the squabbles, shopping and heart-to-heart talks.she's probabaly the only one who could dig me out from my shell.i hope she's doing fine in australia.
oh well in 2 weeks i'll probabaly be too busy to think so much.i realised that maybe staying busy is a way of protecting myself, that's why my sis thinks that i'm a cold-blooded and unfeeling creature.it's good to learn something new about yourself everyday!
but for now, i really just want to meet up with my friends before i move off to live at pulau ntu.it's so out of the way that it should be an island on its own.well the only island criteria that it cant fulfil is the fact that it doesnt have any water around it.
anyway i was thinking if we singaporeans can stop being so self conscious and stingy with compliments, would singapore be a better place to live in?i realised that people are always grateful when they receive sincere compliements about a haircut or new dress.and my day always starts right when someone wishes me good morning when i step into the office.it's really these small and seemingly insignificant things that makes a whole lot of difference.haha dont believe me?why dont you try it then =)