xiuyi =]

2007-11-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

ONE down, THREE to go! 11 more dayssssss........

haha i haven touched fm and biz law.

2007-11-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK =D

it's been so long that i think i almost forgot how to blog when blogging is so idoit-proof.haha nono it's not me, it cant be.anyway exams are almost here. my first paper is in 2days and guess what is it.IT fundamentals.what course am i taking?accountancy.nvm i wont complain because it wont help.I love IT, i really do. It's just that i still dont know what Web 2.0 is all about and I can always ask trustworthy just-a-tin to take a short walk of happiness (haha taken from one of his old entries) and attempt to help me fix my comp if it goes on a strike so why do i need to know what network is best for the company or how information is sent through the internet.packet switching?circuit switching?all i need is to GET the info.incoherent?perhaps.

it's quite tiring reading entries that rattle on and on about whiny stuff so moving on =D

kk now i have to post something that i owed my sis super long ago.

haha thanks jie for the birthday presents!i'm really touched!really!it's just that i have been too obsessed with trying to not get a C.

i dont really have much to say now so i guess i'll just post photos and give some random comments.

Hall 15 Blk 72. My second home from now. I cant believe 3.5mths of school just zoomed by. I feel so blessed to have such great friends around me. Hall life isn't as lonely as what i thought it to be. I'll have to take a nice photo with pris my roomie soon too!haha only she knows what i need in the middle of the night =p

anyway this photo was taken during the night when i specially went back to hall on sunday to see the 2 moons (the moon and mars) with my blockmates but unfortunately we didnt see anything =s

other random hall things...so far i've seen a family of boars cross the road from my hall to the forest opposite where the ns people train. i've seen sispec people marching through ntu, along the pavement opposite my hall.they looked like little green ants and you can hardly tell one guy apart from another because of the green uniform and green helmet.hmm that's the whole purpose right? anyway i cant rmb who but one of the guys said that they wanted to drop their pink ic infront of them and do the classic "oops i dropped my PINK ic" haha damn evil.

i picked up chinese chess from han ming and this was one of the games i had with jeremy. He wanted to puke blood cause i just followed every single move he made.hurhur =D

my very heng dart! that hit bull's eye.

nopp this is not nbs. we're not that lucky =s this is the new adm building. it's really pretty both in the day and at night. why am i not arty farty.damn!anyway i took this for our comm fund presentation. we used it as the background after making it more transparent but the slides were still not readable.oh well no more comm fund next sem!YIPPPPPIE!

the people who made me like school again. i started school hating everything cause i was a floater with no fixed tutorial group. The feeling was horrible.but but but! haha i'm glad i have fang fang!the super cute auntie who can sing anytime.

"char shao bao! shui ai chi gang chu long de char sha bao"

*please imagine fang fang doing some random dance movements at the same time*

i cant really remember how i started talking to shannie and charlene but i'm glad i did! haha lejia asked if 4 of us were sec/jc friends. i guess when we're together, we can just unleash our hidden craziness.charlene told me that she used to be afraid of me cause she thought i didnt like her. it's a misconception! it's because i stone all the time other than during tests, when i try to stay awake during tutorials/seminar and when i am actually talking to someone. i must thank my everdearest shun for passing on her unique skill to me. swee chin and suhui also told me that initially they thought i was very feminine, very gentle and quiet. well i wont deny that =p

justin looks retarded

haha i guess that's why we're compatible.

it's really just the exam stress. i'm stressed because i'm still blogging now when i'm supposed to be studying.

anyway i was very tempted to put a photo of justin sleeping but i cant cause he has one of me sleeping too and it looks even more unglam than his.wasted!

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!

2007-07-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

a little something from rudy : -

"people sometimes change as they grow. when you're together, its about accepting the person, changing and growing with him. "

how true...

2007-07-23T02:29:00.000+08:00

i've been bumming around for a week...

not that i'm complaining.freedom is getting sweeter by the day.i guess i should have listened to claire when she told me that i'll get used to doing nothing.but working and knowing that my bank account was growing fatter every month was really great.this should be my face now $_$ (haha if you can tell that it's a face). i've been gym-ing, going for class dinner, shopping and meeting people instead of staring at PeTS, which is a tax computer programme. some photos from my last day of work

yupp that's about it.hmm i'm glad that i accepted the job even though it meant that i couldnt go out with justin as much as i wanted to before he enlisted.i learnt so much and i'm thankful that i had some wonderful aisle mates, seniors and fellow vts!xinyu was within talking distance and i definitely miss being able to talk to her every day. my table mate was interesting and i must say that i've never met anyone like him.the 2 seniors at our aisle were approachable and as cranky as xinyu and i.our aisle was always "alive" when all the managers were gone.i'll also miss jing yi calling me gg, agnes helping me bully jing yi, xue ni popping over to our aisle to get some fresh air and my pretty, patient senior jee min.i think working there for 3.5 months was just nice.if i stayed longer, i would have lost myself and my personality in the growing "file everest".i must admit that it's not easy to achieve a work-life balance. my life was so routined.wake-up, office, home after 12hrs at raffles place,dinner and shower, sleep. and the whole cycle repeats itself the next day.it's like the rhythm of my life. i left before i started feeling like i was being treated as a computation churning machine so at least i took away with me some really beautiful memories =)

well enough of that.

i wish that i could turn back time because my words always seem to come out wrong.maybe it's because of my limtied vocabulary or simply because my mouth decides shoot out chains of nonsense before my brain can filter out the junk.i'm sorry if i offended anyone but that was never my intention and contrary to popular belief, i am a peace loving person (whacking people, certain male individuals in particular, does not justify me to be otherwise).well no man is infallible and i guess making mistakes just proves that i dont come from some random planet in the galaxy.

it's 3plus now, the perfect time for me to continue rattling on because i'm at my whackiest.it's good to have a spoilt tag board so no one can comment on my insanity.

i cant believe it's been EIGHT months since the big As ended.i wanted to accomplish so many things, with learning how to cook at the top of my list. some other things i wanted to achieve were doing voluntary work and catching up with friends whom i've drifted away from.but sometimes we just take time for granted."so-and-so/this-and-that can wait lah.i've plenty of time."but the thing is, do we?the future is so uncertain.

and this is when i start thinking about the past although it's not healthy to live in our own history.but why should i put myself through the agony of worrying about things that i probabaly have no control over now.i believe in fate and with a stroke of luck, we can expect the impossible.sometimes what's most difficult is seeing the simplicity in certain matters.when we want something so desperately, we force and we might get it but after awhile we discover that it's not something that we really want.i always thought that i had to fight for everything that i wanted so i wouldnt have any regrets and i'll cherish the fruits of my labour even more.but my affinity with justin was kind of unexplainable.okay effort was put in for us to work but we started off with a simple study session because the rest of the class who went for lunch that day decided to throw away their books to catch a movie.destiny, blessing, call it anything you want to.but we cannot deny that there's a greater divine power at work.it is quite amazing how we only started talking at the end of 2 years when he lives 10mins away and 3-4 houses away from thomson plaza, the place i used to go to almost every day.so take things easy yea =) haha that was a weak attempt to convince myself that i should stop expecting too much.

uni is starting in about 2 weeks.how i dread it.the thought of a new school, the process of making new friends, facing exams and ever-ending assignments and getting used to living away from home is not as inviting as how some might picture it to be.but no!i have to psycho myself.UNIVERSITY WILL BE A BLAST!ALL THE WAYYYY!!!!

GRRRR!!!!

i miss my sister and my room seems too empty now.i miss all the squabbles, shopping and heart-to-heart talks.she's probabaly the only one who could dig me out from my shell.i hope she's doing fine in australia.

oh well in 2 weeks i'll probabaly be too busy to think so much.i realised that maybe staying busy is a way of protecting myself, that's why my sis thinks that i'm a cold-blooded and unfeeling creature.it's good to learn something new about yourself everyday!

but for now, i really just want to meet up with my friends before i move off to live at pulau ntu.it's so out of the way that it should be an island on its own.well the only island criteria that it cant fulfil is the fact that it doesnt have any water around it.

anyway i was thinking if we singaporeans can stop being so self conscious and stingy with compliments, would singapore be a better place to live in?i realised that people are always grateful when they receive sincere compliements about a haircut or new dress.and my day always starts right when someone wishes me good morning when i step into the office.it's really these small and seemingly insignificant things that makes a whole lot of difference.haha dont believe me?why dont you try it then =)

2007-07-10T00:40:00.001+08:00

4 more days before i officially bid pwc farewell.

and i'm neither excited nor upset.i guess working for so long has reverted me back to my stone and SGG self.haha i bet you'll never get what SGG stands for.

it's only monday.why are the weekends only on weekends...anyway justin i have it all planned out .i know where to go pig out on fri/sat/sun so pray that the weekends dont take forever to come.and although it's a little early, you have around 1.2 months to think of how to fedex yourself =p

ahhh why can't my hair just grow loooooooonger faster...QUICK QUICK QUICK!

2007-07-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

I always wondered, maybe we'll all be happier if werent given any choices in life.it's like how ancient Chinese women were contented with their lowly lives, being discriminated against and having to slog their lives away for an unappreciative family.maybe not all were contented or else no one would have fought for our rights and we wouldnt be enjoying the fruits of their labour now-equality.

What if one day your spouse gets HIV because of reasons other than infidelity, and somehow you get infected too.will you rant at him/her then cool down after that and say "i forgive you and i still want to be with you"?anyway you dont have any other options so why not just stick with him/her right?or would you just end your marriage in a divorce?

i know it sounds awfully weird for me to even be thinking of such a topic.well i watched fantastic4 with my sis last sat and i came out of the cinema with a swollen thumb so i got paranoid.i didnt know if i was pricked by some HIV needle in the cinema, which is actually quite impossible since i felt no pain at all.cross my fingers and hope i'm fine!i still want to get married =S

2007-05-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

FUCK

my interview today was crap.i've never felt so small after an interview before.

"looking at your all these(he was holding the uni application form with all my cca positions and write-up on my working experience and achievements), i was expecting you to be more seasoned."

"i think you probabaly wont get a place at smu.so why do you think you were not offered a place"

okay those werent his exact words but that what the prof meant.and he said all those nasty things right at the end of the interview.i know your school has a long history but BIG DEAL!and you treat your interviewees like fools.made us write our cv and not collect it in the end.even the guy at the front desk who was in charge of directing the students was clueless about it.finally after asking around, i handed in my cv to this lady who passed it on to someone else.i wont be surprised if i helped the environment today by providing a piece of rough paper for the administrator.save the trees!seriously just please go be a cow and eat grass.haha that was quite random.i must be under the influence of xinyu who is abstaining from beef now.

well yes i know the profs cannot be blamed for my incompetence but why do they have to be so blunt.yea welcome to reality where life is harsh and no longer a bed of roses.we just dont feel the love in the world like how we feel the recent heat waves.am i making sense?i think i'm just too traumatised.I'm going to sign up for some"Ace your interviews with XXX" (nopp not my sis who happens to have xxx as her initials). I think i need that and i found a fellow nutcase to accompany me.haha shun i hope you're reading this.

well i guess i'll just stick to what i have now.at least i have something to fall back on.

*optimism**optimism*

i shall focus on the good and not dwell on my unhappines =D

2007-05-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

i heard over the news last night that a laundry shop in the US is being sued for 65million dollars because they lost a pair of pants.haha how ridiculous.

2007-05-05T13:24:00.000+08:00

i took 2 hours to finish my last entry.the rubbish i write at 4am in the morning is amazing.not in a good way though.

i forgot to write something my almost 60 mum said!

"xiuyi,if you're not serious with justin,you shouldnt go out with him one to one.you should got out in a group and get to know him better first.dont break his heart."

HAHA

this is what happens when you have a mum who's 4 decades older than you are.so i'm supposed to go group dating until i'm 30?and only when i think i've met the right one then i'll go out with him?i mean how am i supposed to know that he's the right one.it's so easy to hide your true colours in a group.this is totally absurd.i'll probably get so desperate at that age i'll marry any guy.maybe that's why i'll end up in a divorce.the fortune teller is such a fraud.

anyway my mum is overly worried.i wont break his heart at least not intentionally.although waiting every night for a phone call is kinda sucky, i think army is still a good kinda training =)

i saw an almost immediate change!he decided where and what to eat for lunch!if you think i'm lovesick.i guess i am slightly...make that abit more than slighlty.haha the good thing about reviving your blog after a long time is that less people will read it so it's less embarrassing.

2007-05-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!it's really not that i dont want to blog but some divine power is against me blogging!i had this really long entry 2 saturdays ago but my house blacked out cause of the lightning.strange how the world works uh.i'm going to give up on trying to say what happened to me in the past 4 months cause i'll not know where to start and i'll probabaly give up halfway.

went out with claire and xinyu today.people with the same frequency as me!haha dont even try to deny that.had a really meaningful and serious conversation with them.the solemn kind.haha that's rubbish!how can we ever get serious when we're together.it was really just a girls/bimbotic/a little bitching/alot of sharing and catching up kind of talk. and we all had our embarrassing moments.claire was trying to transfer the chilli sauce from one saucer to another using a straw and xinyu was trying very hard to cover up for "the cousin(claire)" and the sister(me)".

from what we discussed today, i concluded that guys are complex beings.
and it is always better to find someone who likes you more or at least to the same degree.

"love is selfish"

i think it's selfish not only because you dont want to share your partner with someone else but it's also selfish cause it's painful to get hurt over and over again so after awhile, you'll start to learn how to protect yourself.i dont know how true it is though.

stopped by j8 with claire after that and she had to remind me about my past.how amateur i was and how i ran away from so many things and someone last time.i dont know how i was so totally defeated in jc.the confidence level i had dropped to an all time low and i started to do stupid things.who goes all the way to the other end of small sunny island singapore to support a game and not even say hi before leaving.it was the same every single time.kinda retarded right.there wasnt much logic in the foolish things i did.now when i have time to actually look at things from a different perspective,i think i was damn irritating.it's so difficult for someone who has a substantial amount of ego to understand why someone with a low ego handle certain situations the way he does.like how he rather stay in the background and watch from afar becasue he despises himself and thinks that he's not good enough and worth cashew nuts (cashew nuts are more expensive than peanuts so they're for people with slightly higher egos).it's really tiring to try to pull someone out from his darkness and therefore it gets annoying.depression somehow clouds your thinking and prevents you from analysing things rationally.but then it's so hard to snap out of it.soon, you'll start blaming yourself for all the unhappiness in your life.like what i did.ignorance is bliss cause it really sucks to start thinking that someone likes you only because u like him or her first.

whatever it is, i'm done with that chapter of my life and a brand new one started on a brand new year.Dont cling onto the past.but i think a person's past is what shapes him so every experience is a learning journey.retain the good and improve on the flaws.but for me,ONE heartbreak is enough.haha too many i cannot handle.

okay enough of the gloomy entry.it's 3am now.i cant help but feel a little more emotional than usual.well a few photos to perk you up!or rather perk me up.

justin's 19th.

3rd month.

one of the few spastic photos of people in general =p

my mum.and she's 60 (according to the Chinese calendar)

my sis who looks younger than me.LOOKS.

i've not many photos.i've uploaded most of the decent looking ones on friendster already.those that dont make me look like someone from venus.but men are from mars and women from venus.that means i'm normal right!

i always thought i was emotionally independent.one of those quite extreme cases but after these four months, i realised that maybe i dont know myself that well.i do things that i never thought i would.i can put myself in the shoes of others better now and i have these sudden surge of emotions occasionally.i've been doing quite alot of ot too and have i ever mentioned that i love the night and i particulary enjoy working at night when the office is quiet and everything.my colleagues think i'm weird.nothing wrong being an owl right!well justin is in camp.field camp.i've to wait till next fri or sat for his bookout.ot will be my temporary best friend.

anyway bye curly hair and welcome back straight hair.please let me finish my nus write-up by tomorrow so i can go rebond my hair on sunday!i used to think that rebond was supposed to be reborn.not bad ah.grow new hair!anyway yea i applied for 3 unis and i had/have to go for 3 interviews.i totally used up my 2 days paid levave for the interviews.how horrible.and i also took 2 days mc in like less than 2 wks ago.

I AM FREAKING TIRED...

and i dont think anyone will read my blog cause it's been rotting for so looooooong......not a bad thing either.

2007-01-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

well all i've to say is that

I'M SUPER IRRITABLE TODAY!

went to visit my grandma today.while i was there, my aunt insisted that i have only 1 kind of face (expression).WTH.yea i admit that i stone alot but it's not all the time right! YAWN if u agree with me.haha i found this interesting fact online.it says that people will most probabaly yawn upon seeing that word.not very true for me though.anyway back to my point.she said i can never become an actress (since when did i want to?!?!?!?!i have never ever dreamt of being one.well unless one day i become underweight)and that i should go for some classes.then she went on to say how my sis and i are devoid of feelngs/uncompassionate etc.after that it was how the cousins are so un-bonded.well it cant be helped.u dont just throw the kids in a house and expect them to mix while the adults are talking and catching up.i used to be extremely anti-social.i would sit in a corner drawing circles with one hand and squares with the other (i cant really rmb if i did that.but i probabaly did), waiting to go home.terrible i must say.so when i had a choice,i stopped going over to my grandma's house.furthermore canto/hainanese used to an alienic form of communication, which explains why i was never really close to both my grandmas.sometimes i wonder if it's my fault.

b-r-a shopping was next on the list.and i seriously wasnt in the mood to shop for underwear when i was gonna be late for the gazillion-th time with my friends.anyway my mum said something that totally irked me.i was telling her i want one with more padding then she said "why you want so much padding.it's okay to be flat what.i'm flat too."thanks alot lah.it's not like i'm not already a proud owner of a smooth airport runway.RAAHHH!

claire and hammy suffered the aftereffects of my cranky-ness.sorry yea.but i guess my mood improved a little after awhile.hehe that's what friends are for right =D (just trying to make myself feel less guilty)

the last event of the day that made me cringe.i told my mum the story of my bus journey today from ps to cine.i told her that claire and i tried to cheat the bus uncle cause we were quite argh about the fact that we've to pay adult fare from now on.so we decided to cheat for once.just once.we paid coins and pretended that we didnt have our ez-link cards.claire boarded the bus first and got stopped by the bus uncle cause he wanted to see her pass.so obviously she answered sorry i didnt bring it.after that it was my turn,the uncle asked me the same question.i said "well i didnt bring my card or else why do u think i'm using coins."and i said that in quite a pissifying tone =X anyway i told my mum about our erm ONE dishonest act that cheated the bus company of let's say.10cents?biggest mistake EVER!.she started preaching to me how i was wrong and that one will lead to another and to another and she continued on repeating the same line umpteen times.i'm not 3!i even look 25 =(

i dont see how this year will be any better than the last,other than the fact that my life took a slight change.but people say what you believe in will eventually come true cause the mind is strong (well there are exceptions ya).therefore HAPPY new year peeps =D

2006-12-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

i'm back from my hongkong,guangzhou and shenzhen tour!

and i'm sick.how nice.

Day ONE

this photo was taken at some temple.my sis and i went to get our fortune told there!

isnt the photo jsut so pretttyyyy =D

i cant help it that i was damnnnnn coooooooold........

Day TWO

i think this place is really interesting.it's called window of the world because it consists of different attractions from all around the world!

some boat ride we took at night

and it was freezing as well.

Day THREE

dont the trees look like mushrooms!

Day FOUR

disneyland ice-cream!

our piglet and eeyyyyooorrrr ears!

say hello to ziyan the mr potato head!

my mum thought re4 gou3 was dog meat.HMMM....

if i brought money, i would have bought this!but then again it was really ex and i'm quite a practical person so maybe not.

fireworks!hk people are really lucky.disneyland has fireworks every night!but imagine the amount of air pollution.

disneyland is really pretty at night.really.

the 5 days were really exhausting.i feel even more tired than when i left.it shouldnt be the case right?i think it's because of my mum and sis.i could hardly have a moment of peace with both of them around.always arguing and passing sarcastic remarks.plus it was quite irritating to keep hearing the hongkong tour guide criticising china and the china tour guide criticisng hong kong.they were like cutting each other's throats!

tour food was really bad too.we had the same thing for every meal for 3 days (because the last 2 days were free and easy).and the temple toilet in guangzhou was disgusting.i didnt even know how to use the toilet.it was dark and basically you have to pee into a drain like thing.i rather let my bladder burst.talking about bursting bladders, i realised that everytime i go for a holiday, i've to go to the toilet every hour or something.maybe it's the weather.

some other random things that happened in the 5days

1) my sister told me that she doesnt dare to eat watermelons because she thinks that a plant will grow out from the top of her head if she eats the seeds.

2) i almost got knocked down by a bus in hongkong.i think all vehicles hate me.in singpore, a car almost ran over my toes.it was like less than 5cm away from my feet.

3) my sis can be quite responsible at times.i was rather shocked and maybe impressed.but that doesnt make up for her childish-ness and extreme stubborn-ess at other times.

4) well my sis and i got scolded by my dad again cause he said that we dont know the value of money.keep spending and spending when we're not even earning anything.sigh i wish i was born earlier when my dad was still holding a proper office job.but i'm still thankful to have them as my parents.i guess they just have different priorities.my dad thinks that buying clothes and shoes is a waste of money but he's so willing to let me go for tuitions after tuitions.whatever it is, we still managed to buy 4 pairs of shoes, 3 bags, a shirt, a skirt, 3 bottles of HONEY which cost like 100plus and alot of other small small things =) didnt get to buy much clothes though cause all the clothes all mao mao one.

5) unfaithful is such a painful song.

6) i dont really like hk,shenzhen and guangzhou and i'm glad to be back in sunny singapore =D how patriotic!

2006-12-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

my lovely shun =)

05s11 =)

dont mess!

mr hammy =)

class girls =)

stick stick!

dont u just want to slap him!

2006-12-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

my g-string!

birthday girl =)

i'll EAT you!

the one who reads my mind!

njcd!

my starbucks mate =)

pris who are you looking at!

i think we should just stick to smiling =)

when we started to get half drunk and half high =D

2006-12-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

my back is so hot now that you can cook an egg on it.STUPID RASHESSSSS!i'm damn depressed.in the past i thought i was just allergic to certain types of alcohol cause it's not my first time breaking out in rashes.but apparently i'm allergic to all types.i think my limit is only half a cup or something.there goes my night life.i can't possibly go clubbing and ask for a cup of coke right.ARGH!maybe i should just stick with coffee and be loyal to starbucks.haha which reminds me that i haven gone to the united square one for a loooong time.

anyway prom was really not bad!took like hundred plus photos, smile until my face damn pain.i'll post the photos up later if i've enough determination to stay awake.went chijmes after that to have a drink and that was when the disaster started.all i can say is that i was super embarrassing.i dont even want to talk about it.haha and justin has a piece of evidence to remind me of last night.damn!cabbed home after that and i was blabbering nonsense in the cab.finally revealed something to karwai but he didnt believe me.oh well his loss.anyway jialing ziyan yaodon xinlin and justin stayed over.by the time they left, i was sick and dying.i was feeling nausea but i could only vomit air.by mid day i didnt even have energy to stand up straight.sometimes i'm amazed by my own body.which idiot gets sick so easily.anyway time for photos!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIREEEEE!!!!!

2006-11-11T12:11:00.000+08:00

yeah 6 more days!

haha okay a's was not all good.but nvm it's gonna be over soon.i've got around 3 months to find my goal in life and think of how to react if i see

CHEMISTRY------ C

MATHEMATICS---C

PHYSICS-----------C

GENERAL PAPER--C6

i'm just afraid that my result slip will even be uglier than that.rrahhhh!

well putting that aside, i want to talk about the starbucks girl =) she's damn good-looking! and she said bye to us!!!!!haha i was damn high and i kept giggling the whole way home, like some teenage girl swooning over some cute guy (just that she was a she not a he).i know most people might think i'm sick but it's okay to have a female eye candy right.heh heh heh =) haha justin thought i was crazy cause the only thing i said on the bus was "she said bye!"(x1000000 times) and i was so excited i couldnt sit still.

anyway yupp chew said i'm becoming an eye sore cause i'm growing fat.THANKS.greater motivation now to lose weight after a's!haha then maybe i'll ask the girl for her number.

SHOO ALEVELS!

2006-11-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

i had a nightmare last night.somehow our fears are always amplified 100x in our dreams.our mind is like an op-amp!anyway i dreamt that my arms became so flabby that they drooped like 15cm.it was disgusting!so much for my weird dreams.

my sis said that she's most probabaly going australia next year to continue with her studies.damn.i'm going to be so lonely without her. although she's quite irritating at times,she's still my sis and it'll just feel different without her around.haha but yup jie if that's what you want to do,then just go for it!i'll erm visit you during my hols?haha but pay for my airfare ah...

anyway i think i finally xiang3 tong1 already! it took quite long but i'm still glad i did.there's so much more to live for.i'm going to embrace the future!haha that sounded so cheesy.well it's not that bad being sick afterall.u start to think about all things big or small in a different way =)

few more days before the real thing.

FOOD CHEM I'M GOING TO CONQUER YOU!

2006-11-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

SCREW YOU GP!

haha okay i feel abit better now.well i whined enough about it today so i dont want to rant anymore.the more the i talk about it the more =''(

oh well i just hope that i get better asap.how to study like that!stupid flu.

on a lighter note,the big A is going to be over in like 14 or 15 days!woooooohoooooooo!!!!

anyway i saw this guy today and he looked like he was wearing a halter bra.okay i know he wasn't cause there wasnt any "cup marks" and he wasnt having like protruding boobs.the strap was probabaly some dunnowhat strap but it really looked quite halter-ish!i couldnt help but stare.haha he must have thought "woah someone looking at me.haha i must be damn shuai today.nono i am shuai everyday!"well somehow that reminds me of karwai.

dragged junhong to walk out of school with me today and heard that the juniors did pretty well for promos.wth lah.i'm jealous.i barely scrapped a promotion last year.that should explain why i'm struggling this year.

this is such a random entry and abit incoherent i must say.so to end it off i shall say.DAMN WHY AM I SO SHORT! bye peeps =)

2006-10-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

thanks prata.i've such a bad sore throat now.of all times....RRRAAAHHH!

anyway i think i'm getting abit bonkers from all the mugging.saw jocelyn and friends at starbucks yesterday and i performed "THE ATTACK OF BARNEY!"haha dont ask me why it's called that.but too bad i took the photo with my phone so i can't post it here.

2006-10-21T17:03:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to blog about this!!!MY TUTOR ABDUCTED MY MAGAZINE!!!okay not really mine,my sister's.anyway it was by pure conicidence that he picked up the magazine from my coffee table and started browsing through it.then he asked

"eh isnt this your sister" (my sis appeared on the magazine and her photo was like almost half a page big)

anyway he almost wanted to keep it and i said no cannot cause it's my sister's.but guess what,after he left,THE MAGAZINE WAS GONE!

i bet he has something for my sis.HAHA!jie remember love is blind yea =) anyway he's quite nice to answer all my questions and to give me extra tuition time

spent the past few days mugging hard but i stoned even more.

graduation on monday and somehow i didnt even feel a tinge of sadness cause nj was being such an ass.reviewing prelim results and there wasn't even any graduation programmes.ggrrrr.had lunch with yawen,jiaying,anitha,edwyn,sihui,justin and jingtat.mugged with justin after that when most when to watch a movie and jiaying was so insistent on going home =(

anyway i also had free coffee!the guy from the startbucks next to wheelock is damn nice.it was 11plus already,the counter was closed and everything was washed but after telling him how much my sis needed her intake of caffeine, he made me a caramel java chip!and when i was about to pay,he said that it was on the house cause the register was closed.i was so touched!loyal starbucks fan i am now =)

tues was a slack day.(other than maths p1 from WINNIE JC (retarded name) and gp with ms teo,who came up with extremely weird and random comments."imagine there's a resort at the end of the world.then you can tell people you're going going to 'The Last Resort' ")hmmm....

wed was a okay day.

thurs was a damn suay day.i shall not comment.

i had free hot chocolate on friday too!thanks justin!the glasshouse starbucks at united sq is like a FREEZER!and yea it even looks like one.but i managed to finish a full chem paper (2002) during the time there!an achievement i guess!

haha i realised that i've really long posts.anyway i'm going to try to add a photo for every post next time!my blog is going to be so much more interesting and colourful =)

and yea i think guys in pink are hot.

2006-10-21T13:13:00.000+08:00

haha xinyu and claire just taught me last week how to add pictures to my blog so here goes!

NJCD (missing are kendrick,linrui and jingting)
they're the reason to why i dragged myself to school everyday since last year till this year when dance stopped.my heartbeat.

claire.my divorced wife from st nicks =)

peck my honey!

haha sorry if i didnt post the rest of the individual pics.for example with shun and pris.cause it's not easy for me to look normal in pics so i only added the more erm normal looking ones.hehs!

that's what i go to school for now!*points downwards*haha photos of my classmates below =)

some of the class girls =)

jiaying.dont laugh at my jerky motions anymore,will you?and can you tell that i'm bending down to accomodate her.HAHA!kk kidding kidding.

xinlin.i felt a sense of familiarity from the 1st day i saw her in her nj.

well although this photo is damn blur,i'm sure you can see the great ziyan and his spastic pose.spoil my photo with jialing!

some of the class guys

haha that's all for now!i hope my this entry gets through!WORK HARD EVERYONE!!!

2006-10-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

i feel nausea.

i applaud myself for being able to brave through 7h of PHYSICS tuition and still escape unscathed,well almost,since i think my brain isnt really intact anymore.haha who in the right mind would agree to such torture.and i have to go through this 4 more times for 4 more weeks.please tell me i'm nuts and wasting precious $$$

okay since i start school at 9.40 tomorrow,i guess i can give myself an excuse to stop staring at physics anymore(i can literally feel my eyes popping out of their sockets)and rant abit here.

hmm i dont understand why i even bother going for so much tuition.(and sometimes i think i get complacent because of all the tuitions.i'll think that i've done loads of work when they're only cosidedred peanuts to some)haha i think there are probabaly people laughing at me now for my stupidity cause i'm not producing any results.YOU WAIT!I'LL PROVE YOU WRONG!HEH HEH HEH!but i can't help it if i'm slow and that i just dont have that knack for solving stupid vector diagrams.anyway i'm seriously going bonkers.i'm starting to relate all my daily happenings to physics and chem. for example...i can't think of any now but i will later.

oh yes and i just learnt how the radio works.apparently it's something to do with resonance.something like when u tune the radio, you are adjusting the natural frequency of the radio to match the frequency of that radio station.well i think that exaplains all those station numbers,is it?pretty cool right!

i think my entry is getting abit incoherent (and yes coherence means that the sources have constant phase difference)well you get what i mean now.

but i think this is only time that i actually have a clear goal.to achieve the best i can.hopefully 1A and 2Bs and B3 for gp.haha let me tell you how retarded i was in pri and sec school.

in pri6 i was half hoping to do badly for psle so that i can go some ulu pandan (coincidentally it's a road name) school and have more friends who played more and ya get more "life".haha and i thought i could get married easily by 18.all those drama serials lah.one of the adverse effects of media.thank goodness i didnt cause if i did,i believe my life now would be in a turmoil.anyway the other half of me wished that i would do extremely well so i could gain recognition and some sort of security (you know how parents always emphasize the importance of a good education).well ended up with a not bad score and in st nicks.well must have been the wisest choice in my life!

in sec4, i hoped that i could either get 6points or do badly and go poly where i can do something practical.but no,fate decided to put me back in nj cause my score was stuck in between.well i would just say that i hope to hurry get over this 1 more month and be done with the freaking 2 years.

anyway the bottom line is that i've never asked myself seriously,"so xiuyi what do you want in life.what are your priorities?enjoyment?stability?excitement?".haha kinda freaky to talk in a 3rd person but i think it's something we should put some or ALOT of thought into.i supposedly let fate decide everything for me.for example i'll say"okay if blah blah blah happens i'll talk to blah blah blah today" or if it rains today i'll go for ballet.i think my brain is shrinking,u know ji1 rou4 wei3 suo1 zhen4, because of these brainless activites(the brain is a muscle right?).BE DECISIVE!i've never done anything exciting in my life and i wonder if i'll have any regrets if i leave now.

well some people say that they will die with regrets if they can't get to experience true love like those in earth shattering romance novels.okay maybe i'm exaggerating.basically i think i've lived through 18years mostly alone and i'm doing fine.is it really necessary to find someone to share your life with.i cant imagine living with someone else and having to tolerate all his small weird ethics while he tries to custom himself to mine.maybe i'm just being a sour grape.

but i really think my future love life is rather bleak after the fortune teller's "golden words".although people tell me to not be gullible and take in every word,seeing the attitude i have towards relationships, probablilty of it occuring is damn high.i dont want to go through heart wrenching break-ups and yes,time heals all wounds but some wounds can only be covered with a plaster and it's worse because the wound under the plaaster takes an even longer time to heal.what you show on the outside will only be a facade to cover the raw piece of flesh that lies beneath.and did i mention that i'm IMPATIENT and STUBBORN.and even after the wound heals (that's if you're lucky), it takes away something,your ego and self-esteem,like how you've lost that bit of skin and flesh forever.new skin will grow.it's like shedding your old self and becoming someone else with a new lease of life.but you can never be whole again because of that ugly scar that haunts your dreams and every awakening moment when you've no work on your mind.this scar consists of love,hate,insecurity,uncertianity,bittersweet memories and it also provides the building blocks to build that Berlin Wall, cutting you away from the rest of the world so you can live in self-denial.i dont think i can live with that.and wanting me to go through it a few times.why not just kill me now.

anyway i'm afraid of the future,espeially when this world is getting increasingly superficial with everyone hankering after wealth and status.if i become a clerk,i'll probabaly lose all my close friends now who might climb up the corporate ladder and become some big shot CEO.life is cruel and our pride is probabaly even more fragile than that piece of lousy glass that shatters when someone screams causing the driving frequency to be equal or close to the natural frequency of the glass so the particles will vibrate with max amplitude.resonance.anyway i'm side tracking.as i was saying,nothing in this world is definite and it's a scary thought.maybe it's even better to be a beast which hunts to satisfy its most basic needs and fight to mate.

i shall do something extremely embarrassing or different after As.be outgoing because that's who i want to be.i'm not satisfied being the plain jane you see everywhere on the streets.actually i doubt i'll fulfil it in the end.

but what i do know is that i'll learn how to add photos to blogs after As.haha i dont deny i'm a computer idiot.anyway if any physics facts above is wrong,kindly correct me so i wont go into the exam with all the wrong information stuck in my head.and all the trauma i'm going through now would just go down the drain.

2006-09-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

well my future looks dismal now.

got back half of the prelim papers today(full chem,half of physics and maths) and yupp what more can i say.haha chem improved from a F to o8 and now to o7.every important exam it improves by a grade so how am i supposed to jump 4 grades to get a respectable B (i'm not even aiming for A).do i look like a flea that can jump 350times it's body length.rraahhh!

anyway despite all the lousy grades, i had to gear myself up to prepare for more shocks tomorrow! (although maths and physics better not fail me) so 174 came along and we went to get a present for one of my friends!had gelare and eating is really a good way to destress!anyway i laughed TRUCKLOADS today!all i can say is that i've an extremely SPASTIC and GULLIBLE friend who has absolutely NO DIRECTION SENSE.so yes,i successfully tricked him into walking the wrong direction while i waited for him at the other end and he didnt even realise it until like 10mins later?that's not the funniest part.he was talking to himself all the while,thinking i was still there and therefore inviting unfriendly and weird stares/glares,from uncles in particular.imagine that!i can tell you,there were more retarded things that he did and said or else i wouldnt have been laughing non-stop the whole time.but i shall not be so mean to write them all out =)

the present was okay i guess.finally settled for the ball after walking from fareast to taka to hereen to cine and back to taka.it's not that far right!but someone had to keep "!%^@#&*?" me.haha anyway thanks for helping me out!

time to go to bed!i've to wake up early tomorrow to take a bus to school =(

2006-09-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

after going out with my mum and sis today,i've concluded that my whole family has an extremely bad habit.we mumble.and most of the time we even forget what we mumbled about.haha i think we've probably offended quite a few people without even knowing it.

and i finally found out why sis pouts so much.it's because she's under influence of my dear mother!

how queer. (my mum is almost 60 already,shouldn't be pouting right?)

2006-09-24T14:23:00.000+08:00

i had a LONG and TRAUMATISING nightmare last night!i dreamt that my mum and dad gave birth to a child EACH(1 boy and 1 girl.the girl was wrapped in pink and the boy in dark blue.haha quite cool right,i even thought of such small details in my dream).anyway like that's not scary enough.i also dreamt that i had to support the 2 kids because they'll only be 12years old when my prents are 70.i almost died of depression in my dream.

talk about weird dreams.

2006-09-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

haha yes thanks mr wong and please dont pose as me cause you sound really retarded(yes,even more retarded than me).

hello.

2006-09-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

once again i have to rely on shiu cheong to restore my blog. i dont know why im so clueless to computers and the internet.
my brain is equivalent to pentium one and its old and rusty.
im nice and smart.
and i owe shiu cheong a millllllllllllllllllllllllllllion meals.
YEA! im xiuyi! wooho!!!
woo!!!

2006-09-13T16:36:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling quite light headed now.literally.

the stupid prelims is taking its toll on me.i dont understand why i need at least 6h of sleep now when i used to be able to survive on 4-5.must be the stress!and and and i hate to admit but i'm growing F A T.my sis cursed me that i'll become 60 by the end of As.it's quite ridiculous but i wont be ruling out that possibility =S and it fucking sucks when i thought i was quite prepared but in the end i freaked out every time i flipped open the exam paper.it's not like i didnt study.okay maybe not as hard as some but i really studied ALOT this time round compared to other times.it's fucking irritating to know that i'm jack of NO trades and therefore thinking of being a master would be CRIME.

anyway i was just thinking,is it very sad to grey alone and not have anyone by your side for you to scream at or to discuss trivial things as you wait for your turn to enter another realm?

well i feel like i'm slowly fading away and becoming a mountain tortoise.maybe i should just live in some hill where i'll have a small house made of bamboo (so the roof will leak), toilet with no flush (maybe i'll find a snake in it someday then i'll get bitten on the butt and get poisoned to death), rear some chickens (and derive pleasure from chasing them around and thinking of how to cook them for dinner when i can't even cook rice properly) and ya just bum around and do retarded things.or maybe i'll become a famous poet like Li Bai who lived in isolation (did he?) that's why he could write so well! you know,most of the time you have to be damn depressed before you can be dramatic enough to write something that is earth shattering.OKAY THAT SHALL BE MY DREAM FOR NOW.

2006-09-09T17:39:00.000+08:00

have i mentioned how much i hate my chem tutor(tuition teacher).sigh he just told me today that i'm his most unmotivated chem student.it can't be helped right since i dislike chem so much.but i think i really shouldn't say this now since the first paper on mon is chem.rraahhh!

anyway there's one funny thing about him.i think he's the horniest teachers i've ever had.you know, like one of those people who look super toot but fantasies alot.and i think he has something for my sis!he said to me before, "your sister is actually very cute" and "your sis dress until very hot ah".and it's damn sick cause his eyes are always glued to her when she's around and i have to contain my laughter cause it's so rude to laugh.anyway on one occassion, my sis, being vain and bimbotic, had to disturb me during tuition.

"yi ah do i look better in jeans or skirt"

a long silence followed cause i chose to ignore her.

"i think the jeans is better"

haha and guess who said that! he told me after my sis left,"wah your sister's skirt very short ah.wear jeans better". i was quite speechless.anyway my sis is quite mean to him also lah, always pretend not to hear him even after he said bye to her twice to or thrice.tsk tsk.

actually other than the occassional mean things he says about me and my intelligence, he's quite a nice tutor who will clear all all my doubts even when the tuition time is up.hmm jie i think he's worth considering if he goes for some hair treatment to treat his receding hairline, put on braces to correct his slightly protruding front teeth and go for a tan to shed his white chicken skin.hmm but all these aren't very necessary since i believe beauty is from within.so the most important thing he needs to do now is to attend some "how can i be a nice person class" to CHANGE HIS ATTITUDE.oh man i feel damn mean but i can't help it cause he's so freaking irritating.argh!

and to you : i hate you.i really do.

2006-09-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

i just made a GREAT discovery.

if you add an extra 's' to As...you'll get Ass!

well that should explain why As is a pain in the ass.

i'm so unprepared for prelims.

2006-09-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

i've such nice smelling pens now cause they all smell like COFFEE.rrraaahhhh!

well my spastic nature was the root of this tragedy.i was trying to do this stupid and simply retarded action to laugh at this particular person and to irritate shun.what followed next was a silent but powerful PIAK and down went my cup of coffee.it was damn gross.there was coffee all over crumpler and my pens were swimming in coffee!haha okay that was an exaggeration but my bag was really traumatised k!so i wiped the coffee off my bag and the cover of my pencil box thinking that only the cover of my pencil box was victimised.but ya note the word "THINKING".when i took out my pens like 5mins ago they were all STICKY and EEEWWY.well i guess chocolates really grew out from trees today since it was ice belended hazelnut coffee so when i took out the chocolate-coffee covered pens(trees) from my pencil box(soil),they were like chocolates growing out from trees!oh man sometimes even i dont understand my jokes and analogies.haha i know it's so lame you probably want to whack me now.

anyway moral of the story is dont laugh at others cause there's such a thing called karma.but to make myself feel better, i rather believe that it's because i've LONG LONG arms =)

haha i wish.

and yupp i love KOO SHUN TING.it felt so good laughing at her and she's probabaly one of the few people who will laugh at my attempted jokes.haha but at least 1 of 100 jokes i tell is funny okay!

2006-09-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

well it's wed/thurs already.what more can i say.GONE.maybe i should start writing my will and allocate whatever little i have to my family and friends.

my beloved green crumpler (which will probably die with me since i bring it to school everyday so yupp can't really be included)

my green ipod mini (which doesn't have much updated songs inside so i guess no one would want it)

my green nikes (well i've to admit i dont have the nicest smelling feet =S)

my green tablets for mr complexion (but it does make you feel like puking)

and many many more things like my pink phone with all my preciously few photos, my trustworthy pink jacket, my watches and the list goes on.......anyway please contact me if you want anything in particular.i'll remember to include you in my will.

oh gawd!what am i even typing.haha exam blues.

anyway went for dinner with jialing and chew yesterday and dear mr chew had to keep reminding me that i've no eyelids.I DO HAVE EYELIDS OKAY!haha but i got to admit,dinner was great cause they are really WHACKY.

ziyan was a total embarrasement.he didnt believe that it was freezing cold inside eski bar so he pushed open the door and said "woah really very cold" and he gave that "shivering shrug".haha what kinda crap is that!if it wasn't cold would the waitresses be donned in like thick jackets,pants and boots?anyway i realised that holland v has some very unique clothes shops,really worth exploring.haha can you believe it, i haven't been to holland v before,despite being in nj for almost 2 years already!

and yes ms quek saw another dog and she said that in the future,if she sees a dog and she has no where to hide, she'll jump over the fence.hmmm...but what if she's pregnant!and they insisted that it's natural for someone to run if a dog is chasing from behind.actually, i think it's smarter to just stop cause the dog will also probably stop and smell you first.anyway as we progressed on with the conversation, quek said "it's like if u see a lorry coming at you, of course you'll run right".my answer was "the lorry wont stop to smell you".oh man sometimes i just admire my witty-ness.haha i'm sure if you know me and my level of intelligence, you must be laughing in front of your comp now.oh well at least i made your day right =)

anyway i was just thinking.why are we all so interested in reading blogs?does talking about other people's lives (gossips) make us happier?if so, why?so we can compare ourselves with them and say "heyy my life is so much better.i can see the sun while blah blah blah is experiencing a thunderstorm." or is it that reading other people's blogs will somehow help you forget about your own life and miraculously make your life more bearable?somenoe else's life always seems better and more interesting.it's like reading a book isn't it?

haha i'm getting extremely random and incoherent.

and to mr wong, must remember our after-prelims-you're-supposed-to-help-me thing okay.thanks in advance!

night everyone!i've a breakfast date with shun tomorrow!i hope i'll be able to get up!tomorrow will be a brand new day with warm sunshine and chocolates growing out from trees =)

2006-09-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

i got bait-ed today.damn.

2006-09-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

had another great ballet lesson today =) i'll be so deprived for the next 2 weeks.sigh i just hope that by giving up the only entertainment that i have in my life now,will earn me some extra marks in prelims.rraaahhh stupid prelims.

okay back to maths now.

i can do it! say NO to baits! (haha i think only dear mr wong will understand what i'm saying) till then...

WORK HARD PEEPS!

2006-08-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

okay here goes.tuition today was "HUH" .my brain was having a serious short circuit.waste time + money and since time = money so it's waste (money)^2. haha well this would lead nicely into what i want to say next. mr seet yaodong reminded me today of this stupid email on how girls equals to evil and guys equal to evil to the power of something.anyway had a helluva time mugging with ling-a-ling and yaodong at venezia.they were so AMUSING!haha they were like at each other's throats ALL THE TIME, bickering and poking each other but it did seem more like jl abusing yd most of the time.haha my dear tuition mate, please dont whack me after seeing this.

didnt really accomplish much.i only did 1 chap of chem mcq and finished writing notes for proteins.it's like my FIRST time reading through the food chem book properly.there's still food chem book 2 to go and i really doubt i can remember anything at the end of next week.haha but heck lah it's prelims,not As.i think if i go full steam now i will just slack before As.

left around 6.30 and and and i must blog about this since i promised jialing to.while walking out, we saw this fairly big and ugly dog,with a long strand of saliva hanging from its mouth,tied outside the building.jl had this horrified face as she hurriedly scurried away.but the embarrassing thing was that because she was already so traumatised,SHE MISTOOK A LADY FOR A DOG!and she literally jumped and let out a loud "URGH". haha u know the "i-am-shocked-but-too-shocked-to-scream" sound.and the lady even said sorry to her.haha the stupid things jialing do.

i can't wait for prelims to be over...i think preparing for As would be more meaningful.

oh yes and i forgot to mention how sucky the gp paper was.please tell me i'm not the only stupid one around.anyway...

WORK HARD EVERYONE!

2006-08-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

MY BELOVED ANKLE ="( it's not healing properly. or maybe it's because i've been slacking too long and not going en pointe.time to start training! haha but ballet was still fun all the same =DD

2006-08-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WONG SHIU CHEONG!!! (better enjoy before u go into army cause you'll never know what the wild can do to you!haha kidding kidding)

firstly i want to thank CLAIRE for my birthday towel!haha your sewing is really not bad!was gwee very happy with your home econs last time?i can't remember.

anyway let me blog aobut what dr chan said.on thurs during tuition,he asked jialing "quek so what do u want to be next time" then after that he asked me "tit so what do u want to be next time?" being indecisive like how i always am,i said i dont know.then he suggested that i become a TEACHER!oh my my jaw dropped.what?!?!?!haha being a teacher is like the last thing on my mind.anyway i said no and he asked why not.so i said "cause they'll laugh at me" and he said "why?they'll love you!"haha well i think he didnt really get what i was trying to say.anyway i think i'll make a really lousy teacher.i was asking yawen about a physics question today and after i got it i tried to explain to her.but all that came out was "i dont know why take this point as a pivot too.but i just know it's this point."haha what kind of lousy explanation is that.then i always get very agitated when i dont know what i'm teaching plus i always think that i'm not right. and i can't imagine myself teaching primary kids. "teacher teacher xxx wet his pants". haha what am i supposed to do right.

okay enough of my rubbish.prelims is in 2weeks. save me! haha nvm i'll just prepare for As only so tys here i come! yea ballet tmr =D

i walked the old route home today.the feeling that felt so familiar in the past suddenly became so distant and unimaginable.i dont know whether to be glad or not. glad i guess =o)

2006-08-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog on tues and wed but i was really too tired.haha i guess my bday went well =) it was like a any normal day but with birthday wishes, presents and gelare+dinner outing! i wonder why i was so cranky on monday night.

i want to thank my sis for my watch! yawen,huishan,sihui,anitha,kelly,xiumin,edwyn,ling,justin and jingtat for the super pretty glass thing! xinlin for the cute and classy(to a certain extent)photoframe with our photo inside and plant that keeps away mosquitoes!(haha first time i recieved a plant.so special right!) jiaying for my orange daisy-look-alike flower and haagen dazs-look-alike thing(haha try to trick me right!) and yupp also for going out to eat gelare with me.yum!yee shiang for the super green cup (good taste!) and of course shun,pris and peck for my the collage.it's so so so pretty!i'm super touched and it just brought back so many memories.it's one of the best presents i've ever recieved.6 years passed in a flash.i think my life would have been so different (in a negative way) if you all weren't beside me.thanks =)) haha and yes i'm waiting for xinyu's hand-made earrings!so exciting!wheeee!i also had dinner with dance people (shun,zhen,peck,ys,shiu and linrui) haha i got to know alot of ba1 gua4 news and thanks for taking time to have dinner with me =) finally i wanna thank everyone who wished me happy birthday!haha well i do feel loved to a certain extent =)

okay i need to start on maths now.the test today was disastrous.sigh i really dont know how to help myself.bye for now =)

2006-08-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

i seriously dont understand why i'm in such a lousy mood now and neither do i understand why i dont want tomorrow to come.it doesn't make any sense,does it?

pe has become my most detested lesson in nj.it's like the make ME feel crappy session.i know that sounds damn egoistic but well that's what blogs are for right,it's all about you and your wonderful life.anyway back to pe.as usual i stood at the side and refused to even stick out my hand to intercept the ball when it was within reach.i ran away to other parts of the court when i saw people coming towards my side.i hate pe.it's such freaking dangerous lesson.i sprained my ankle TWICE this year during pe.what kinda crap is this lah.okay maybe it's my fault that my ankle is beyond repair but it is damn scary when all i can see during pe are images of me stupidly knocking into someone,falling and therefore spraining my ankle again.going to the tie2 da2 person everytime is traumatising and listening to my mum's "WHAT?!?!you sprained your ankle again?!?!?!in the future u cannot walk then how?" is bloody irritating.how the fcuk am i supposed to know how.it's not like i want to sprain it.rraaahhh!!!!and i can't go for ballet for a week after every sprain.even when i do go for class after a week,it's damn painful at the end of the class.i miss dancing,i miss going on en pointe.i really want to dance like how i used to be able to.although i wasn't good, at least i felt good.why are my ankles so useless.regardless of whether it's major or minor, i sprained my ankle 5 to 6 times this year.try matching that.

i think this is probably one of my most vulgar entries even though i dont think it is because i've restrained myself from typing more.i can't remember since when i started all this swearing again.under the influence of my sis i guess.tomorrow is such a bad bad day =(

2006-08-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

caramel java chip =))

2006-08-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

i wanna go for ndp next year!!!

the last time i went for ndp was 2 or 3 years ago i think.it was damn fun!everyone was so high and enthu!haha anything beats sitting at home watching ndp and listening to my dad's irritatingly unfunny jokes (like sin-ga-pore becomes siao-za-bo) and my mum's forever out of tune singing.but i must admit that it's quite amusing sometimes.

NDP 2007 here i come! (well provided i can get the tickets or maybe i'll go as a performer =] )

fireworks display tomorrow,anyone?

2006-08-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

i watched LAKEHOUSE with shun and claire today!it was soooo super nice,sweet and touching that i wanted to cry...haha xiuyi crying?okay maybe not.anyway i really loved it!and i want to watch it one more time!!!

i think i might start believing in fairytales again.i'll wait for my prince in shining armour to sweep me off my feet and we'll ride away to some lala land on his white horse!so cool right!just that he'll probably have to bring the horse for a million check-ups to ensure that it's horse-flu free and i think it's rather painful to ride on a horse (after the experience of riding on a camel,i think riding on any animal is just as bad).

anyway i think the national day celebration in nj today was quite successful.at least there were more people at the grandstand than in the canteen.i really felt the nj spirit(if that's what it's called).or maybe i just opened up my mind and changed my attitude towards nj since i'm also guilty for causing the impression of nj being a slab of cement.

i need sleep!but i need to rush my essay first.argh!

AND I LOVE MY SIS FOR MY BIRTHDAY WATCH! THANKS JIE =) but supporting you financially for the month of august,because u have no more money left after buying my watch,will be a different matter.hehs!

2006-08-07T09:57:00.000+08:00

SLEEPING IS GOOD! i hope.i spent the my whole weekend sleeping like 13-14hours a day.being sick is disgusting!

I'M A CHANGED MAN.okay make that a changed female.i read sc's blog recently and i must say that he has alot of angst in him.it's quite scary how one can be blinded by all the hatrad in one's life that one has failed to notice all the beauties in life.haha i know i'm guilty of that too but it's really not easy to be optimistic all the time.no?anyway from today onwards, all this will change =) i'll spend more time looking for things to be happy about, rather than complaining about stuff like how i really dont want to see mark lo =(

watched rapture last friday and it was really quite inspiring! other than 1 item by nus alumni or something.5 guys were dancing in boxer like things and it was quite obscene.haha somehow it reminded me of manhunt!1 of them looked like superman with his red "underwear".fortunately they had quite good bods but it was still weird seeing 5 guys dancing with only a small piece of cloth.

i really liked the concept of one of the dances.all the dancers were blindfolded and it suddenly struck me that every dance should be like that.cut off all your distractions and just dance every dance with your heart. the fan dance was damn cool too!they used the music from ru guo ai and it felt so nu ren xiaopin.basically ALL the songs were damn nice.haha i'm jealous of all the sa dancers.

now, i really want to dance more and improve!

sigh i'm starting to feel giddy again after waking up for less than 3h.

2006-07-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

I SAW BENJAMIN EIO!haha and guess where did i see him.MY AUNTIE'S HOUSE!

today is my cousin's 21st birthday.i think i see him less than 3 times a year so i hardly even talk to him.anyway that's not the point.the point is, he brought his friend, benjamin eio along for dinner at my auntie's house (another one of my relatives who organised this "dinner-celebration").haha i walked into the house and i was shocked.he's really quite short.

i heard him sing too!sang one of jj's song, i think.he really sounds good live.LIVE OKAY!haha so exciting!having a star in the same room as you.i secretly recorded abit of his singing.*ssshhhhh* not that i'm one of his fans,but it's really quite exciting doing stupid things like this.

yupp i guess that's all to my saturday.and i think i'm too lazy to go out to watch the germany vs protugal match later...should i or should i not?

2006-07-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

haha gen is so cute!finally met up with her yesterday,together with shun and peck.lunch was FANTASTIC!we ate at the dunno what steakhouse at cine and the food was really not bad plus i think it was cheap, for whatever we had.

we came up with a theory that if u keep having eye contact with a guy,it means that he's your eye candy!haha such an absurd theory right but it came about because we agreed that when u're in the same room with your eye candy you'll have more eye contact with him then with anyone else!it's quite true right. i've never realised it until yesterday when shun brought it up.or maybe it's just because u're always looking at him so probabilty of having eye contact is higher?*tsk tsk* haha i always thought shun would be eye candy-less.

talking about eye candies, we kept seeing a bunch of guys walking around cine.haha we agreed that one of them is quite cute.felt like some young bimbotic teenage girls ogling over a cute guy.and and and....my ex-ex-eye candy is attached.haha oh well i'll just have to find a new one then,espeically since my ex-candy is gone too.

sat around for about 2 and a half hours.we concluded that st nicks people are lazy people who refuse to move after having a heavy meal.haha we're slow eaters plus lazy.no no no, that shouldn't be the way!

left town around 5 and i met my DEAREST SIS for ice-cream at ice kimo(i think that's the shop name).she insists that i'm going to grow super duper fat cause i had 2 scoops of ice cream this week.she better not be right, or i'll KILL her!

i feel like stabbing myself in the chest when i wake up every morning .is it normal?

2006-07-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

i'm stupid

i'm weak

i'm scarred

-who will save my soul-

2006-07-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

TOMATOES OF THE WORLD UNITE!

went sentosa today with jiaying,yawen,clarice,sihui.edwyn,justin and jingtat.haha i'm like the most un-burnt one cause i reached around 2pm.but i'm still burnt enough to feel the heat radiating from my shoulders =( haha i can be the sun for a day!

played abit of volleyball and there was this prc look-alike old uncle who came over and played vball with us.he was half naked and he had this HUGE WHITE FLABBY TUMMY hanging over his shorts.eeeks!haha but he's actually quite pro.well looks are VERY deceiving.after awhile his friends came over to join us.they all looked quite cheena-fied.haha thank goodness i dont think i look that cheena.the only girl among them wore shorts and this 2 piece top.all i can say is i dont want to look like her next time when i am at her age.more gym sessions on the way!anyway who said sentosa was 'so expensive and nothing to see also'.haha just that what u see might not always be 100% pleasing to the eye.

i couldn't get into the water cause of the ever-so-irritaing-and-always-coming-at-the-wrong-time "aunt".argh!sat around and finished my book ' five people you meet in heaven'. it's a really interesting book and i've got my reading engine started.haha reading has never been my thing.

the last time i went sentosa was half a year ago and goodness the shops changed SO MUCH.the new toilets are so much nicer too!haha i think i sound super suaku.there's this photo taking thing in this shop catering for tourists and this lady took photos for us!we had a big problem trying to act as erm hunks and charlie's angels?haha seriously what kind of stupid suggestion is that right.well sentosa workers aren't very creative i guess.

had dinner at breeks and i won't say that the pasta is fantastic.i think even pastamanis tastes better.anyway i gained new knowlegde today.I'VE LOVE RIVALSs!other men trying to steal xinlin MY MAN.haha it sounds damn wrong.i'm sure i wont lose to them in any way.played pool after dinner and reached home around 1045.my hands are itching for more!

anyway i'm glad i went for the mini class outing today =)

2006-07-03T03:48:00.000+08:00

i've decided! i shall marry any guy who can buy me the biggest plasma lcd tv (is that what it's called?) heh =)

late nights aren't healthy.but i just can't seem to bring myself to sleep =( haha but then again,i need to get sufficient rest because i'm going SHOPPING tomorrow and yes for once,in like a million years,with mooney in my bank.

WOOOHOOO!

2006-07-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

I CAN SWIM NOW!!!

okay not continuous but at least i can make it through the length of the pool!great achievement k!anyway i think i'm still swimming wrongly.i keep getting water into my nose and i'm always desperately trying to fight for air so when i reach the end of the pool i'll be panting like crazy.i guess it should be because i've some mysterious phobia of swimming so there's this mental barrier that i'll drown if i dont keep changing breaths after every stroke.i need more practice!

had lunch at crystal jade yesterday.haha like what xinyu said, we ate alot of flour.and claire finally bought her bag after considering for monthS.haha congrats claire.i'm sure you won't regret it cause the bag really suits you.now it's my turn to hunt for my bag.i dont know if the bag i want is actually worth my 130,especially since i'm already so poor =(

i finally watched an1 jing4 shan1 (silent hill) with cheeeeeky yesterday.i think it wasn't such an impressive movie.in fact it was rather boring.i actually expected to see 3 times more blood and action.it was a very slow paced movie.or maybe it's because i went in watching the movie with some expectations?anyway i think the small girl is very pretty!haha kids are looking better nowadays.not like me and my coconut hair last time.

3 out of the 5 and half days "make-up holiday" left.oh well...

2006-06-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KOO SHUN TING!!!

i watched da da DA! SUPERMAN! (the man with the red underwear!) i think the movie was not bad.all the effects and everything.at least i felt happy after watching the movie =) i guess it was mainly company too.haha shun is a HUGE paedophile and we kept talking throughout the movie.at least no one was around us so it wasn't that bad.anyway yes the boy is SO CUTE!i really can't wait for him to grow up and like what shun said,maybe we'll see father and son flying together in the next movie!

walked around after the movie and we ate ice cream!heh heh.it was really great going out with shun and crapping non-stop.there was hardly a moment of silence.oh and i met xinyu too!haha she said that she has started making my birthday earrings!YEAH!

common test 2 is finally over but i dont really feel anything.and i'm getting abit worried cause i definitely studied more for ct2 then ct1 but somehow i think the grades will be the same.someone should just open up my brain and add some chemical X,Y and Z in.3 doeses more powerful than 1 right.

xinlin, thanks for the wafers =) haha i finished the whole pack already!

meeting claire chiki and xinyu tomorrow =)

2006-06-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

haha my sis didn't know i changed my template for almost a week already.she's such a lousy poke!still keep saying that i don't visit her blog.

i just want to pass my 3 subjects and not get bottom 20% for ct2.but why does it seem so out of reach.i can't even sit down and study for 30mins at one go.i've been erm bejeweled-ing my time away.haha it's quite fun k,don't look down on this simple mind game.well so much about my life.

physics remedial in school tmr.i guess the only good thing about it is that i finally have somewhere else to go other than raffles trust.i just need to hold on for awhile awhile awhile more.YEAH!

well blogs are meant to be whiny.

2006-06-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

i think i'm enlightened today!at least i can smile to myself now =) i guess you just have to look at things from different perspectives.it's your choice whether you want to live your day in sorrow or see the good in things that don't go your way.The past will shape your future,but the past will always remain as the past.Enjoy the present and look forward to the future =)

EVERY DAY IS A BRAND NEW DAY!

haha anyway my chem tutor told me today that i'm considered quite hardworking this holiday compared to his other students.YEAH!well his words sure change fast.but nevermind.i like it!

2006-06-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

i realised some of my tags disappeared mysteriously...anyway thanks for all the words of comfort.i'm sure i'll be fine after awhile =)

there's only 1 week of hols left and i still have SO MUCH UNDONE WORK.rrraaahhh!haha but failing is my forte so yupp i shall just let nature take its course.

All the best everyone!

2006-06-18T09:44:00.000+08:00

i hate the feeling of waking up and not being able to go back to sleep again.i'll just lie there and think of what happened and i'll start to feel like crap.

sleeping was never so difficult.

2006-06-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

i just ended a chapter of my life and i think it ended quite well.thankfully,not with unhappinesss or hatrad.the past 2 and a 2/3 months had been great.but all good things come to an end.just that this time i think it ended really fast.qianxiang thanks for everything you've given me.love,care,concern and everything that a bf should have done.i'll never forget 27th march '06 or 17th june '06.i'll keep the memories deep in my heart.for the last time.i love you.

welcome singlehood! =)

2006-06-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

i finally changed my template!haha okay i didn't really change it.Therefore this entry is a thank-you-wong cheeko for helping me out entry!

THANKS! =)

[1]haha well it's the day!

2006-06-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

I HAVE PANCAKE HAIR!haha but nevermind.it's only for today and tomorrow.eewww!

2006-06-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

the ride to dinner was rather scary.my parents were quarrelling again.one's obsessed with his singing and the other keeps thinking that she's sick from head to toe(seriously how not to when you have that mentality).i was so afraid that my dad would suddenly stop the car and we'll all get flung out of the car or that some other car would stupidly bang into us.haha i've been quite paranoid about accidents since pri4.anyway i've concluded that FOOD is really essential.people are the crankiest under 2 circumstances:

1) when they're HUNGRY

2) when the person happens to be a GIRL and she's dying of CRAMPS.

my chem tutor came today and he told me that i've to study 10hours a day or else i won't be able to make it.i was totally HUH.but i guess he has a point so i'll just settle with the cannot make it for now.10h is madness.not like i'm really aiming for 3As.

well tomorrow or rather today is wed. =)

[2] hurry hurry!

2006-06-13T00:53:00.000+08:00

my handphone batt is still full after 3 days.

in the past it couldn't even last for a day.

haha i feel isolated from the world.

[3] don't come back...

2006-06-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wish i had the heart to hope that you never come back.

[5]

2006-06-10T02:03:00.000+08:00

haha my 'ONE CHOP'.okay i know it's wanchop or something.anyway i'm really quite fascinated with his name, like how some poeple are amazed by my surname.couldn't help but keep irritating my sis by repeating his name umpteen times.

i'm super noob at soccer but i think the opening match was quite exciting at certain parts.like the last goal.haha the ball just woosh!and flew past SO MANY PEOPLE!the goals like free lah.6 goals in 90mins of play.i think it's quite alot,espeically since the 1st goal was already in at the 6th min.but world record is 17secs or something right?

anyway enough of soccer though i do want to watch GERMANY more now.haha i wonder why.......

[6] come back to me...

2006-06-09T00:26:00.001+08:00

i want to change my template but it's so troublesome.especially since cheeko helped me with the last one so i forgot how to change already.anyway he insists that i call him mummy for that but i don't mind since he has chosen to turn gay...haha kidding k so u better not call me qiu anymore.

anyway hols has been neither productive nor fun.i think i've just wasted 2wks.things that i've done so far :

1) went esplanade =)))

2) went school only thrice.YEAH!

3) finally did something about my face so now i've 8wks of antibiotics (which is like 112 pills), 2 types of acne cream (1 to apply in the morning and 1 at night.wth.why can't i just have ONE) and some anti-bacterial cleanser.IT'S SO FREAKING TROUBLESOME!i can't remember when to eat or use what at what time.i might just end up eating the cream and washing my face with the powdered water from the capsule.and that's not the worse part.the doctor said i might have to take antibiotics for 6-8 mths =X

4) had my final dance prac in nj.it was quite a killer.kept over-splitting _/ (shape of legs.1 on the floor and the other on the chair)

5) had a memorable dance chalet where were super pampered by our juniors.thanks a million =)

6)watched da vinci for the 2nd time,foc!and i watched over the hedge too!

7) managed a great feat of sitting in the library for 9h and standing up only twice!haha too bad it's only a once in a lifetime thing.no motivation to study at all even with my o f f.really very off grades lah.

8) had numerous physics and chem tuitions.around 6 so far?not that many i guess.anyway i think cc has no professional ethics at all.squeezed 20people into that tiny room.luckily i had something on that day so i didn't go for tuition.or else i'll make pulp out of him.squash him up and feed him to godzilla!

9) met up with xinyu together with claire and convinced xinyu that i'm cured of my gongtitis!haha i'm sure she believed me.esp since i did something smart like saying ___(insert a place in s'pore.i can't rmb what i said) suggestively to try to trick claire into telling me something which was actually nothing.haha do you get what i'm saying?

10) i can't remember anything more...

anyway i woke up today with this stupid splitting headache that last for the whole day and i still don't know why.went united sq for maths remedial or rather consultation(a word to make me feel better) with mr chia, s11 people (jiaying,yawen,justin,karwaia dn peiying) and cindy.it was quite a waste of time cause i was damn cold.my brain was frozen lah.it's like a brain in an ice-cube.disgusting i know.mr chia treated the people left after the remedial to subway!so nice of him right!but cindy and i deiceded to pay for out own meals cause we felt bad.i ate a choco chip biscuit since my mum was supposed to bring me out for dinner(bus pangseh-ed me in the end).i found out quite a bit of things today.whoever could tell that at mr chia dislikes kids must be a genius.he's those kind that would take the kid and bang him against the wall.okay maybe not so extreme but something like that.well looks are decieving.HMMM...anyway had a nice small chat with justin on the bus journey home.haha i think i'm getting a tiny bit more sociable?and...

I WANT TO WATCH SILENT HILL!

[7] come back to me...

2006-04-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

well i sprained my ankle again!haha but at least this time was when i was dancing and not just walking down a step.well not that it's anything to be proud of since the performance is on fri and i've to get injured again.haha stupid sc calls it sprain reloaded.but sigh hope it gets well before fri.

anw we got our fan dance costume today.like FINALLY.but it's still incomplete.actually i thought we'll only get it tmr.anw the costume is quite erm...for the girls,it's like showing the belly.and sulao didn't tell us earlier...my white and flabby tummy lah.at least if he told us earlier i still might have some chance to go tan and do 1000 sit-ups a day to get abs.haha i wish man!i think no matter how many sit-ups i do i still won't get abs =(

rehearsal will start in another 14hours.haha so exciting.can't wait!all the best ya dancers =)

2006-04-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

well i'm back!after leaving my blog to rot for almost 4mths.dance has been crazy for the last month and my knees are just covered with brusies.rrahahh!haha but it's all for a good cause and aristal will definitely be a success!those who agree with me hurry go get tickets!but then again tix was sold out within 2 days.heh heh =)

anyway we got back pw results yesterday and my whole grp got 1.yeah!haha but the most satisfying part was when the ***** face had to admit that she didn't expect one grp to get 1 and that's us!all the sufferings we went through with her last year,criticised our project like it wasn't worth anything.then she made us change our prject till it looked like it was for some kindergarden kids.really all pics and colours.i bet she was damn shocked when we were asked to present to the j1s.anw talking about the presentation,i realised that i have some stupid stuttering problem.i was like "the the...the the...the the....."and i had juniors in that lt *hides face* haha and jialing said something like "you all cannot show negative results of your project or else it'll seem like your project is a failure.therefore you lah might have to...lie!"haha she said that in front of the whole lt of j1s.brave attempt ling!

life's been quite good too for this 2wks plus...hehe =)

take the lead!anyone?

2005-12-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

gosh whoever thought of all the stupid functions and ranges for validity of some complex function should GO AND DIE!but then again i think they're dead already.

well 4 more days to xmas eve,5 more days to taiwan and 14 more days to a new term.can't believe i actually thought that the end of year holiday would be a long one when op ended.

2005-12-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

Dance Camp

i think the dance camp was quite successful!!!haha i really want to thank the organising com for slogging so hard with me...

1) wanzhen (i would have died w/o her)

2) peck and pris for the beautiful camp booklet

3) games com (shun and jas)

4) food com ( kendrick, shiu cheong and yee shiang)

5) treasure hunt com (yun,zhen,linrui and me)

6) jingting the medic

7) yee shiang for holding onto the keys or i would have lost them alr

8) teachers-n-charge for always being there..esp mr tay who drove the treasure hunt to com at 7am!!!

9) etc etc etc

and of course all who took time to attend the camp...a BIG BIG THANK YOU

2005-11-24T19:09:00.000+08:00

rahhhh i'm sick!my nose is running like a tap and i look like i just cried...flu flu go away, don't come back another day...raahhhh!!!

2005-11-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

i think i abandoned my blog for quite some time alr so i'm back! Return of the _____!!! but i don't know what to fill in for those blanks...okay i know it's quite not laugh-able

Anw the past wk was a rather busy one and i went sentosa twice to prepare for the treasure hunt..dancers : PREPARE TO DIE!!! okay maybe it's abit exaggerated but i guarantee you a super tiring experience.you all will have to go through all the trauma and fatigue that,wz,lr,yun and i went through*evil laughter*haha the bites are enough to keep you paranoid for the whole day...You will find small unknown black insects aound 5mm, with pointed tails that curl right or leftwards(can't really rmb)dropping from the trees onto your arms!then when u look closely at your arms,there's more!!!Shocked, you stay quiet and observe its movement and after u realise that it's after your blood..."AAAHHH!!!!" and soon you'll find urself running down the road trying to fling them off...well you get the picture now right...it was such a nightmare and i seriously hope i don't have to go back to that particular place again...Apart from such er well disgusting experiences, the treasure hunt is really very fun!i think all the games are very interactive and some are really unique and different. I really hope it'll be a success after putting in so much hard work...i seriously pray that it doesn't rain...anw did i mention that i'm really quite scared of going sentosa now?*shudders*

Went out with shun and peck to nydc on wed before meeting yun, wz and pris for dinner at food republic...while eating dinner, we started on the er *ahem* dark topics cause i was going to watch exorcism the next day and guess what wz and peck did...they ran away!!!it was really quite amusing...imagine 2 ppl covering their ears in the middle of a grp conversation and soon u don't see them there anymore...

thurs was spent watching 3 movies with 3 diff ppl...haha i was so scared that we couldn't get tickets for harry potter so i made a pact with zhennie to meet at 8am to buy tickets for the 9.10am show and as usual i was almost an hour late,quite typical of me right...anw harry potter was nice!spend half the time at the end clingling on to wanzhen's hand thinking what would happen next since i forgot what i read in the book...the effects and everything was also remarkable!after the movie,rushed back to sch while wanzhen went somewhere to meet someone...haha wonder who right...anw after the meeting went back to town again to meet cheeky and we had ljs!it's like the must-eat everytime i see her =) the fries are always so nice!anw then we went to watch oliver twist and the boy is so cute!dogey too, or whatever his name is...it's quite a touching show and i love happy endings!but i must say that cathay's theatre was freezing...watched exorcism at 9.15 with my sis and argh she was pulling my sleeve throughout the whole show...the movie was not bad too,the actress was really good but there was abit too much courtroom action...i think it was a movie that set me thinking about religion and stuff...like do such evil spirits really exisit around us and why actually are they allowed to roam?but i think i'll nv be able to find the ans...anw luckily we were in time to catch the almost last bus home and ya got scolded when we got home but oh well i think it was worth it =)

2005-11-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

i saw something interesting on the mrt today...there was this mother listening to her ipod and and her baby started crying...guess what she did to stop the baby...she actually gave on side of the earpiece to her baby and he stopped!hmm music does wonders,doesn't it?and i saw a father and son wearing the same design shorts...haha so cute

i've op tmr...i think our presentation looks more like a comedy and drama rather than a normal formal presentation...rrraaahhh pw is sickening...actually i really don't care how stupid i look tmr...i just want my marks so ALL THE BEST TO US!!! =)

2005-10-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

finally blogging after quite a long time...i think i'll blog even less often from now on...I submitted my form today to drop econs.although i really dislike econs, it took quite alot of guts to submit that freaking pink form. jiaying said i looked firm when i decided to hand the form in but well looks are deceiving...I was wavering whether i should take a shot and appeal, although chances are really really slim but i fought that idea off.now, i'm only left with 3 subj, means i can't afford to screw anything up next yr, means i have no 4th subj to stand-by if i really do screw up.there's alot of 'what-ifs' floating in my mind now...like what if i studied more for econs and not get an F or what if i had tuition for econs earlier in the yr or what if i did better for maths or other subjects and maybe i'll be on probation...i guess there's no room for regret now so i should just look forward and strive harder for next yr...this holiday shall be used to strengthen my foundation and to find my purpose for studying...i feel a sudden strong force pushing me forward! =)

2005-10-04T19:06:00.000+08:00

promos

can't believe it's going to be over soon because it still feels like common test was just last month...haha or maybe i'm just slow, but either way, YAY!!!i think my sentences make no sense but can't u feel my happiness, happiness of possibly getting retained...I really did study for maths and chem. perhaps it was insufficient but i really thought it was enough to at least get a D...*sigh* econs was bad too since i couldn't finish writing my essay...let's see, i wrote 2 paragraphs for a 13m question...hmm...and chem. initially i thought i had alot of time but suddenly "poof" i was left with 15mins for my last question plus many many blanks in front and of course i became very flustered and couldn't think straight anymore...chem mcq was like a guessing game instead of an exam, there was almost no time to think through any of the questions...For section b, first thing i did was read option 1.if option 1 was wrong, immediate reaction was to choose C.haha me and my weird logics.

I really wonder what i'm good for or what kind of job i want to hold next time. I'm only sure that i wouldn't want to be involved in setting up of sound systems and whatsoever.I think my mind's quite made up this time. I shall wait for promos to end first before i quit.I wanted to quit like few mths ago because i felt very useless and more like a burden, especially during the camp or times when we had to do duty and something will definitely go wrong. but i told myself that i had to perservere. i can't give up so easily and i was so sure that i could learn it like evryone else but i think i was wrong.I also thought maybe i should start to adapt and get to know other people better rather than just sticking to a group of friends.It's been almost a year since i joined and it's not like i never tried to fit in or attend whatever outings...maybe i haven done enough or maybe i'm just irritating and hard to get along with?ya i guess it's me...hmm now i know how the ips felt when we were all busy with syf...now i really understand the importance of trying to bond every single one together so we can become one. It shall be my new goal after promos!

2005-09-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

sigh mm said she might remove some people from that pointe item.and somehow i think i'll be the first few to get axed.sigh...

anw i was watching some show on bbc today about a terrorist attack on a school and it was really gruesome...some poor boy had the brains of another person splattered all over his face.and another boy said he saw people melting like a rope in the fire,becoming all crinkly and slowly disappearing.then another said she wanted to run to a tap to get some water but before she could reach there, that area exploded and she saw a head and leg flying out.oh my gosh...i'll be super traumatised if i were those kids,so poor thing.but now,i'm more traumatised by promos.can't seem to sleep properly and headaches have become my best friends.I can't wait for everything to be over!

2005-09-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

yupp mm finally announced who's dancing in her concert.and i think all the grade7s got into some of the pointe items.haha finally,my 1st pointe item away from the barre!i've been waiting so long for this.but then again, i'm not really looking forward to it.more leg cramps,blisters and scoldings.it was so scary yesterday night when my thighs started to cramp.it has never happened before!i guess it's the dance,tuition and ballet continuous thing that stretched it to the limit.anw the most impt reason why i'm not looking forward to it is,the problem of losing weight again.haha jiaying calls it the yoyo diet.a very unhealthy and inefficient diet i must say,causing ur weight to fluctuate quite abit,but i really think it's one of the fastest ways.sigh open day is coming soon too.

2005-09-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

innocent steps was GREAT!!!haha thanks shun for watching me =) i want to watch again!

2005-09-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

teachers' day

had teachers' day celebrations on wed and i really regretted going to sch(only 15ppl from the class came) although i didn't really have a choice since i had to collect the photos for mrs ng.reached sch at around 645 to learn about setting up of the outdoor pa system or something like that.but i guess iwas more of a hindrance and it felt so weird to be standing around doing nothing while the rest were all so busy.furthermore i didn't understand a word they were saying.for example they were discussing something like"is this wire supposed to be plucked into this hole or that" haha to begin with, i didn't even know that they had a wire like that to be plucked in.ya u get my point right.so basically i waited around until assembly.hmm the feeling of being useless and stupid was quite bad cause i didn't understand anything that was going on.all the technical terms seemed so foreign.sometimes it feels like i'm being more of a burden then help so why bother staying on, right?haha oh well i shall think about that.

anw back to the celebraions.we had aces day workout in the morning and there was this part that was damn funny.the song had this part with a "poot!" sound and coincidentally,the movement for that part was a squatting one.how suitable!haha i kept laughing uncontrollably.anw cabbed back to st nicks with claire and i ate the chao3 fan4 with tou4 gan1 =) i miss st nicks food!the food is so delicious,not too oily and the portion is just nice!although nj's food is supposedly one of the best among the jcs but something is still lacking.is it the friendly store vendors?hmm i really don't know.anw it just felt so good to be back,drowing in the sea of blue.we were all busy exhanging gossips and basically talking crap.we also visited our ex classroom(4justice)!and i left a nice long note =) of course we visited our teachers too.saw zhuanglaoshi in the canteen and she was complaing about various things esp stuff that i shdn't say here.then we proceeded to the staff room.we forced mr gan to rmb our names which was of course impossible,given his memory space and age.he could only rmb his top students like wanling and cheeky =( then we also forced ms nair to get our names right before we gave her her teachers' day present and she did not bad...passing with an A grade.haha she could rmb 7 or 8 out of 10, i think.the class chatted with her for quite awhile.haha ms nair is still as pretty as ever.oh well i'm envious.mrs koh tried to runaway but we managed to catch her in time!she gave us some thinking questions like is 0.3 recurring(0.3333...)approximately 1 or equals to 1.i bet most of u will think it's approximately 1 right but u're WRONG!cause 1/3=0.3333... so 1 shd be equals to 0.99999....then she also asked something like will there always be the same number of even and odd numbers or something like that.i was totally stumped by her last question.didn't evn know how to start answering at all and guess what,it was a question in the sec1 maths paper *faints* haha poor sec1s.they must be traumatised.spent the rest of the afternoon finidng ms poore cause she was mia.and we were so sad when she couldn't even rmb us or which class we were from.to think that we thought she had the best memeory among all the teachers.

went off to town with claire,kang,jacq,chew eng,doris and wang wang while cheeky went back to tj for her photo-taking.kang and rest went kbox while me and claire walked around aimlessly.finally we decided to watch charlie! oh my gosh the choco looked damn good!i think the movie was really not bad.so happy that i managed to catch it afterall.thanks claire for watching it with me although u watched it alr =) after the movie we walked around wisma waiting for cheeky to come.met weiling and marilyn at mango.cheeky tried to scare weiling by sneaking up behind her.it was really quite funny.took a long time to decide what to eat and finally we settled down at cine's food court.haha how interesting right.and we met kang and company again!orchard is so small.but they were leaving when we reached so ya.anw sat there and gossiped till about 10?haha like what weiling said,only after going jc we suddenly have alot of things to say and alot of new and unfamiliar names keep popping out.quite true isn't it?anw after that i really felt more like a dust particle.haha but oh well there's only like 1yr and 3mths of jc left?excluding hols and stuff,maybe around less than a yr?it's really pretty fast.i also realised that 4j ppl are quite scandalous.more than 1/4 are attached alr.haha but of course none are from nj.i ended my day by getting a big scolding from my mum but i guess it was worthwhile =)

2005-08-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

Bball is good for health!

I'm so happy today.had our first chi dance pt/games session =) and i think it was quite gd although the j1s turnout wasn't exactly fantastic but i guess it's because it's too early so some overslept.almost all the ips were down though.It was really fun.I was laughing throughout the whole game cause u can see yee shiang,shiu cheong and de xian trying to block kendrick but failing terribly in the end. jessica kept throwing the ball to the wrong person cause she didn't know who was in her grp so she got tricked easily.haha melody almost got hit by a ball cause she didn't see it coming.silvia and audrey were really gd and fast.very active during the game.then an chi and the other jessica were so small that they could run and squeeze here and there.haha so cute.and of course there's li jing and the rest of the wonderful j1s who came down too!thanks so much to all.we shall continue on with this in term4 =) hopefully. *cross fingers*

2005-08-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

Muggish Mugger

well TRIED to mug in school with dear old claire today but i ended up doing 3 maths questions in 5hours.what an achievement right!haha whatever lah...i was in no mood to mug with my puny brains being congested with all those rubbish things.I shall not elaborate on how sucky the post meet the parents session period has been.maybe i'm paranoid and sensitive but i'm really quite angry with my mum and dad.*grrr*anw claire was nice enough to keep me company till 8 cause i didn't feel like going home.while we were walking to the side gate, claire started making some weird noises!haha like imitating crickets and frogs...she'll go like "HMMMM".u know those sick sounds,like u're trying to *ahem* in the toilet.haha claire don't kill me.finally,my chem is a goner...how could i have drawn the wrong line for the graph!KILL ME!i bet i'll fail.

2005-08-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

blessed =)

haha i think i'm quite blessed now with good friends =) finally met up with cheeky on sat after like almost half a yr. Ate pasta with her and claire and we really crapped alot!i missed all those crapping days and long recess.haha grilled cheeky about *ahem*. and we went to take neos after that!!!haha first neos that i have with cheeky other than the one we took in sec3 i think.hmm or at least it's the first few.anw claire and cheeky were hilarious.claire insisted on adding the word "wor" to 1 of the neos but didn't in the end while cheeky wrote weird words like "huh" "ha" and "hur" or something like that.we were laughing throughout the WHOLE process of taking and designing. We had nowhere to go after that so natuarally we started to search for places to sit and swensens came to mind.ate the wonderful chocolate crunch.well i guess it's okay to be indulge in such things occassionally. Had even more laughs there and my tummy muscles really started to cramp and i just couldn't stop.it's been rather long since i felt so at ease.before i forget XINYU WHERE ARE U!!!don't forget my presents(reunions) =)

2005-08-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

Lousy Me

Sometimes i really don't know what i want.I want things to change but yet I'm afraid to change.how ironic.

2005-08-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

National Day eve

Went out with claire today or rather yesterday,if u consider today as the 9th.we were supposed to watch charlie as planned in the morning but the bus stop at nj had to be crowded and the tickets had to be sold out.argh...MY CHARLIE!!!haha anw so ya we gave up trying to watch any movie and went ljs for lunch!talked quite abit on quite alot of things and i was rather dead cause i had really bad cramps and i felt like puking while claire was suffering the effects of insufficient slp.walked around aimlessly in hereen...actually we did have an aim!to help claire find her mickey mouse earrings!but well mission failed...then we proceeded on to cine to continue our search but both of us were like turning jelly so we rushed up to level 5 to find somewhere to sit!haha it's so amazing how nj made us lousy shoppers with absolutely no stamina.i nv remembered going through such a stage when i was in st nicks.so we sat there and slack for sometime before we both decided it was time to leave.But before leaving the building, i bought 3 butterfly earrings!and claire bought 2!so yes claire i must disagree with u.satisfying ur material wants can satisfy ur needs, to a certain extent of course.anw later she had to rush home and decide what to wear for her dinner.haha she was so stressed over it lah but i guess it's normal.going out with claire was really relaxing. didn't have to think much of what to do cause we're both perfect concrete slabs of njc.and i realised today's the first time that i've gone out with her alone!after like being in the same class as her for 3yrs.

Rushed down to bukit gombak to have my hair cut and i'm proud to say that i've a new hairstyle!or at least a shoter version of what i used to have...a much shorter one.i just hope that my hair doesn't spoil.took 48mins frm somerset to bukit gombak and slightly more than 30mins back to marina when i could have just take 7mins frm somerset to marina...haha resultant distance =7mns worth of train ride.stupid me!but i guess it's worth it or i won't bear to cut my hair off if i went alone.thanks peck and shun for cutting with me and of course to geok who brought us there and sent me off to the mrt station.

Pa dinner was quite okay i guess but very few seniors turned up...let's not have a steamboat next time k!we can always have something less hot and sticky =)

2005-08-07T20:02:00.000+08:00

the getai performance

yesterday's performance at bukit panjang was crap...it's so saddening that our dance had to end this way...why did nj even accept it on behalf of the 4 dancers!i mean we've slogged so much for closing night alr.danced so hard,sacrificed so much of our time,stretched our mental will to the maximum in order to continue dancing a dance that we've been practising since nov last yr, so why can't they just let us rest. anw let me continue with my story.

When we reached the place,we found out that the stage was set up in the middle of an open field and the soil was damn soft and disgusting*ewww*the stage was super small with some musical instruments at the back.during rehearsal, the ppl in charge of the lightings and smoke were damn idiotic. they kept "spraying" smoke and shining the glaring spotlights in our faces and eyes.we couldn't see anything at all plus the smoke was super stinky and uncomfortable.the flooring was also not meant for dancing either cause there was alot of friction.claire and a few western dancers had the bottom part of their pointe shoes torn i think.they shd have just danced in soft shoes cause anyway very few ppl there would actually know how to appreciate ballet and understand the pain they're going through.everyone was just so occupied with their food.it was really like some getai performace.there were even ah peks who were wearing half unbuttoned shirts and drinking beer or whatever alcoholic drinks.if that's not bad enough,the emcee had to interpret our dance "wu chun feng" as "chun zhi wu"...wth...he just changed the name of the dance as he wished...idoiot...but i guess it's rather fortunate that he did so cause at least we didn't spoil the real dance's reputation.anw back to how getai-ish the whole performance was...the item before us was some ppl singing yue 4 liang4 dai4 biao3 wo3 de4 xin1...and the ppl dancing were wearing those super shimmering dresses and dancing some er dance if that's what u call that.Their dresses were quite revealing and not very pretty too.but it was quite relaxing dancing out dance cause we were all fooling around on stage.i heard ppl talking on stage and i think some ppl either forgot their actions or they forgot to come out when they're supposed to.hilarious!

After clearing up, some of the girls decided to go bukit panjang plaza to eat and gossip...for the first time in my whole life, i sat the lrt!!!it was so cool lah...like the skytrain in changi airport...but i felt really suaku,like a tourist.wanzhen,aaron,jas and nat went home first,leaving only me,shun,peck,sara and yun behind.ate at mos burger until the workers there started staring at us.had a great time chatting over a nice meal and during the long ride in the train.i realised that rv's culture is very different from st nicks' and our pov on certian matters is worlds apart.we also got to hear yun hsiu's sweet story.haha makes u feel like the world is not all evil afterall =)

2005-08-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

pe today was quite fun,played vball wtith jialing and jiaying for the whole period.haha i realised i'm really lousy.can't control my strength and all my balls were flying everywhere.Nonetheless,it was really fun.continued playing during break with xinlin and jiaying.my hands were all red and swollen after that...somehow it reminded me of all the fun times i had with s11 at sentosa.oh well it's not good to always think of the past when the future lies ahead! =)

mugged in sch with xinlin and jiaying.haha and johannes tried to sell the mooncakes to us.there's actually a 5-grain roast chicken mooncake...haha who puts roast chicken in mooncakes lah.or maybe i'm just suaku...anw me and xinlin proved our "xin lin xian tong" once again,threw the brouchure on the table at the same time!haha it was damn funny...hmm this isn't a very interesting entry cause i'm being more muggish...mugged in sch till 740.i've take my first step of becoming a perfect nj mugger! =)

2005-07-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

syf closing night!

past 3 days were really memorable to me.I can feel my crappy-ness coming back again.haven felt this way for quite a long time.haha i sang my ma3 li4 song multiple times and probabaly irritated everyone in dance.i rmb everytime i sang the song, cheeko's face would start to cringe.i bet with jasmine g. shiqin and cheeko that i'll sing the song to sulaoshi.well i did finish the song, but no one could make out what i was singing cause of my unstoppable laughter and wanglaoshi even recorded it i think...so maluating!i've totally embarrassed myself but yet i'm not sad about that.and of course on the way to kallang, we got to hear jasmine lau's melodious singing.but joanna insists that it's very monotone while yun hsiu keeps saying that it's very nice.haha well i have no comments.

anw i think our item yesterday was great!!!although it wasn't perfectly neat but at least i could feel the energy.i felt like we were all dancing for a common goal, like what wanglaoshi and sulaoshi said.to me, it was almost as good as syf.i felt exuberent after the whole thing.we were like hugging and jumping around before and after our item.haha and i taught a few ppl esp shiqin what a fu1 yan3 hug is and why we shd nv give fu1 yan3 hugs.finale was straight after our item.everyone was so high and screaming.all those retarded practices for finale on wed and thurs somehow seemed worthwhile.it was quite an experience for me cause it's the 1st time i got ju3-ed.it's quite a "i'm in the air" feeling.but poor lr though...i have a different impression of him now =)

I want to thank njcd for working so hard, for being so suportive and for everything else.I had a wonderful time,esp when we all took out our cameras and started taking photos.I think i took photos with everyone,even with the teachers.It suddnely felt like there were no barriers btw us.I got to see different sides of many dancers.sides that i never imagined i would get to see. it just motivates me to work harder and try to give them my best. i think i haven exactly gotten used to my position yet but i'm still learning.i believe i can do it!

the memory of these 3 days will live on forever =)

2005-07-30T13:50:00.000+08:00

syf closing night!

what more can i ask for. =)

2005-07-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

outdated blog

I realised that my blog is rather outdated, considering that quite alot of things happened since the last time i blogged. There was cca best prac sharing and i think chi dance did quite well =) although it wasn't exactly our best but at least it was presentable.

This week i did my 2nd or 3rd event for pa and i had this rather scary experience with one of the back stage crew members...I told him not to tap the mic and normally, a normal person would say "okay" or "sorry" but no, he turned around and told me "why u so fierce" then dunno what dunno what "don't have to scold me. You can tell me nicely,I speak english" well i bet u've gotten the joke by now.I was speaking in english and in addition to that i was talking to him very nicely. Anw he walked off after that cause someone called him to do something.I thought that was going to be the last him but no, he came back after he finished whatever he had to do.Then he told me "You're so fierce.I'll remember your face"I was shocked and ya abit freaked out so all i could manage was "okay good for you. it means that u've a good memory".pris was next to me and she tried to "stand up" for me.He told her "You're very fierce, I'll remeber your face too". I can't rmb what happened after that but thank goodness that was the last time i had to talk to him.okay i guess i can be quite fierce at times, but i'm quite normal normally, right?

Went sa's dance concert yesterday and i got to say that i'm impressed by their syf item!All the dancers were so full of energy and their turns were so sharp and clean. The choreographing was also very unique and i really liked their black umbrellas.Reminded me of witches in fairytales.I suddenly feel motivated to turn well.All the sharp heads etc.It was really beautiful.But some items seemed abit forced. Like it was made to be there to fill up the time space. But overall, i think the performance was great!Congrats to all the sa dancers =) Hopefully ours next year will be just as good *crosses fingers*

2005-07-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i'm really angry with myself...Why can't i ever do anything right...I can't excel academically and neither can i shine when i dance...i'm like this totally useless thing wasting the earth's oxygen and resources. I got 89 for my ballet exam and i don't even think i'm average.The highest in class was 95, nicole and chu qiao...shun got 92 and jun yan got 90(the rest unsure)You might think that it's only a few marks different and afterall it's still a distinction so why bother?But i just can't help being particular.To me, every mark is impt...Why must everyone tell me that i made great improvement, raise my hopes and later let reality smash all my dreams.Well this is not the first time going through this...last yr the exact same thing happened and although i've the experience" alr, somehow it's just hard to accept it all over again.Maybe i have too high expectations of myself or maybe i'm just really lousy.Whatever it is, nothing can be changed anymore.My ego has dropped to negative infinity once again.i don't know how am i going to continue dancing...

2005-07-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

I stepped on the weighing machine today. It's not a happy day.

2005-07-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

smiths

Went out with peck,nuanting,shiu cheong and kendrick today...supposed to be a bigger dance outing but i guess it kinda flopped...anw it was a not bad day even with only 5 ppl...went kbox in the morning and..and..and i sang!haha it sounded rather horrible but i sang abit all the same...nuanting and kendrick were very enthu while shiu cheong and peck were just stoning...haha i was the most "middle" one...a balance of both is always good!

Bought tickets for the 4.45 show after that.While waiting, we rotted, lagged around and saw de xian!haha ended up tricking him...it's long story and i'm too lazy to blog about it but de xian if u're reading this, thanks for bringing entertainment to your deprived seniors =) anw smiths was not bad, with that unexpected twist and i was rather amazed by the fact that they could just makeout in the midst of their fight or rather their attempt to kill the other...not a bad movie...

Today was a long and tiring day but fun-filled day.Had alot of fun going out with them but somehow my mood worsened after the movie...just became very stoned and uninterested.Must be pms-ing...haha the privilge of being a female =)

attended jubilate yesterday and it really brought back many memories...esp the dances...somehow i thought about the turquoise leotard that we all detested wearing and my synco jumps with caroline plus all those times spent with the dancers...now, it just feels like everything was only part of a beautiful dream, something that is no longer real or exsistent.haha i think i'm getting rather touchy saying all these stuff...shall just end here...nite everyone =)

2005-06-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

2 more days!!!

yes 2 more days to the dreadful common tests but look on the bright side...it's going to be over in 5 days so hang in there everyone! =)

I've cancelled my 91256219 line alr so dun need to kill your brain cells and test your luck if u need to msg me to tell me something cause i only have 1 line now =) sorry for the inconvenience for the past 2 yrs...haha but i guess u won't have a chance to test your luck anymore.

2005-06-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

BBQ

Bbq yesterday was G R E A T =) a big thanks to all ( li jing,dexian,an chi,christabel,pris,shun,jas,sara,yee shiang,yun hsiu,jingting,peck,wanzhen,lin rui,shiu cheong,kendrick,li en,jas,guo feng,yunshan,gordon,huiming,ruizi,shiqin,jee kai,qian ling,ye fan,mingyue,alicia,wanglaoshi and of course our vip sulaoshi)for making it such a success...hmm well i think it can be considered quite successful and I must say that the food was not bad!haha esp peckying chicken wing batch1...hopefully dance camp will be even more fun than this =)

anw before i forget...i promised peck that i'll blog about what she said on mon...

peck: "termites?how can there be termites on ur roof?shdn't they be on ur bed?

me: "termites eat wood"

peck:"huh?dun they suck blood"

2005-06-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

Fortune Telling

oh man...i'm damn freaked out by what the fortune teller told my dad...i thinkit's because it sounds rather true and somehow i can find some links to my current life now...my fate,my life...haha nvm i shall face it without fear! =)

Anw yesterday when i was having tuition, my dog started using her body to hit against my grill door and the amazing thing was that she was still asleep while doing it...haha that set me thinking, do dogs actually have dreams?do they have nightmares?haha do they dream of their whole family being massacred like what i do?i really pity my dog...she's always so lonely...anw that reminded me of what sc said last time...how do dogs held in captivity learn the "doggy language"?and won't they forget how to "speak" or rather bark once they stop "talking" to other dogs?or are they not like humans?they rmb like how the elephants do?(haha am i using the right phrase?) anw i think it's a rather interesting and refreshing topic worth thinking about.don't u think so?

mugging today wasn't exactly productive.spend most of the time walking around trying to find a good spot.hope it'll be better tmr =)

2005-06-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK!

i might as well commit suicide now...

2005-06-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

Pa Camp...

Came back from pa camp yesterday and i was damn tired...haha who would ever think that pa camp would be tiring...i was aching from my arms to my stomach and to my butt...hmm on 2nd thoughts perhaps pa camp wasn't that tiring...but rather i was alr very tired after dance...yun hsiu's stretching is super effective...haha haven ached like this for a long long time and i think it's time we change our ji ben gong...

anw back to the camp...i was in grp 3 and the members are soo yan,minru,cherie,me, elton and pang wei.Went late for the first day, around 5plus so missed most of the training for that day.Then after dinner and one training we had our night hike!oh man i think it was damn embarrassing cause i'm afraid of the dark esp when i'm blindfolded and cannot see a single thing.I have this phobia that i'll suddenly just fall down and die.haha i know it's ridiculous but dun ask me why i think this way.Anw throughout the whole walk, i had ppl coming to ask me "xiuyi are u okay?tell us if u cannot take it anymore and u can stop"haha cause according to victor, i looked super scared and on the verge of crying which i actually did for dunno what reason halfway during the walk.yefan also said that my lips were pretty white.oh man so embarrassing!haha but the only incentive i got was i was less dirty than the rest...slept at around 1 and i think i was probabaly the only girl who slept through most of the night cause i had this splitting headache

On to the 2nd day...We had training as usual and i think i'm really redundant.When everyone was helping to set up the system i was like "huh where is this cable supposed to go" etc so in the end i just helped to arrange the cables and stand around when i finished arranging.haha i couldn't understand a single thing during the training either cause all the terms seem so foreign.I'm wondering if i should quit or just try harder.okay enough of that i shall continue.After that,we had another games session and i'm quite proud of myself for thinking of such a brilliant idea to finish the task.haha i admit it was rather sly of me but it's quite impossible to find 2 $100 notes in nj right so ya i engaged the help of my wonderful sis...well if u wanna know what we did ask me =) then we were supposed to play another quite disgusting game on the field called "caterpillar" and everyone's butt was like soaked with mud.haha but lucky me got to skip that cause i had to leave at 5.yupp so that's all to my pa camp story.haha and i think they're still in sch now.wonder how their performance would be like...

2005-06-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

Infuriating...

I was really fed up today.How can she just make a few minor changes and woah the idea suddenly became hers.I'm so amazed lah!firstly, it was so unfair that we were forced to stay behind to help think of another idea for another grp(i'm really not blaming the other grp but rather someone else)last fri we walked around botanic gardens for about 3hplus until our legs almost gave way before we could come up with our one pathetic idea and now we're expected to come up with another one from out of nowhere?anw i think i would have willingly stayed back to help if we were asked to nicely and properly but no it was more like "u all cannot leave until they've thought of an idea".I mean so what if u're a teacher it doesn't mean u can abuse your rights and keep ur students "captivated" right?Then the next shock came when she just changed a few points of our idea and said "no, it's MY idea and i'm giving it to u(the other grp)for u all to work on"she even asked us to like specify what type of pests we want to eliminate so that the other grp can use HER idea to eliminate another grp of pests.i mean somehow both ideas sound the SAME to me.anw i was starved today,survivng until 7pm on only a packet of mini chipsmore that i ate in the morning at like 10 or 11 cause the stupid vending machine was spoilt and i couldn't come home or go out to buy food since we were forced to stay...We were only allowed to leave at around 4.45 when we could have left at 1.45 or 2...*argh*

mugged today in sch since 8 and i must say it's gd to mug with a yr 2,esp a yr2 who has smart friends!haha solved quite a few of my maths problems!oh ya and i haven mentioned that kendrick sings very well while jasmine is super hyper...haha got to realise their "talents" yesterday and i was really impressed! =)

2005-06-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

i think i'm evil...

I almost forgot to blog about this interesting thing that happened today that got me quite amused...haha i actually scared cheeko!!!oh man revenge is damn sweet after he kept sending me those scary stuff online...retribution!(oops hope i won't get any though)anw let me recap what happened...since he scared my stick in the morning i decided to take revenge for her!haha i hid behind the door leading frm outside the guys toilet to the backstage...then after waiting for some time...i heard footsteps and i knew that it was the perfect time...so as he walked through the door...i suddenly stretched out my hands and went "BOO!"haha mind u the boo wasn't even loud...cheeko was stunned for a moment and before i even knew it, he SCREAMED and JUMPED then he TRIPPED before ROLLING ON THE FLOOR from the door to the stage before CRAWLING across the stage.haha he was damn traumatised.i almost fell on the floor laughing also...it was so hilarious...haha when he scared peck she didn't even scream and he was laughing at her timid-ness but when i scared him he screamed!oh man...haha ya that's all to my interesting story hope it was entertaining, right SHIU CHEONG *winks* =)

2005-06-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

a new chapter in my life...

had dance on wed and ya we have our new dance exco alr ...haha like finally, after all the interviews,voting and selections...i still rmb how i flopped during my interview.But somehow, i was lucky so i managed to get into exco =) and ya i'm the new pres...was pretty shocked myself when i heard the results.Although i did run for pres but i was expecting to maybe just get into some other position in exco.Well...it's a new and exciting challenge and i'm kinda looking forward to it though i think i'll need lots of help and guidance on the way.Anw sometimes i really wonder why can't everyone get into exco...ya i guess there's quite a duh answer to it but i just dun like that ans...it's terrible to feel disappointed.

We also had our first exco meeting on wed and somehow halfway ms wong asked lin rui to use a word to describe some of the exco members.The word he gave me was 'sensitive'...I'm really quite honoured by that word but i dun i deserve it.I said something very tactless during the other meeting after dance.Thinking back, i dun think i was right to give such a base-less comment.I'm really sorry.I'll think before i speak in the future.

Anw after dance we went to watch the odyssey(??) dance concert at the indoor stadium...the dance wasn't fantastic but the daners were all WOAH!the starting was damn cool and it reminded me of the samsung e800 advertisment...the 2 male dancers were so soft they looked like they were bone-less...the other dancers' techniques were also very gd and all their movements were super sharp and clean.There's this korean dancer who has very nice line and another dancer who has such a high arch!and yes not forgetting...all the dancers have shockingly good stamina...they danced throughout the whole thing for like 1h plus w/o resting...i'm very impressed!sigh how i hope i can be that good too...

I think i'm going botanical gardens tmr with my grp to find inspiration for gpp...our gpp got rejected twice alr...hope we can think of something gd...nite everyone =)

2005-05-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

sick once again...

Finally i feel well enough to climb out of bed and blog...I'm just so disappointed with myself, the way i performed on sat.It was terrible and jian4 bu4 de2 ren2.Never in my whole life have i danced so badly...I did injustice to the dance, to nat, to potti and to sulaoshi who choreographed it.The title of the dance is "joy" and yet throughout the whole dance i couldn't even force a smile out.My nose was totally blocked and my whole body was burning but yet the fever refused to like "burst" out and everytime i moved a muscle i could feel my whole body ache...What a time to get sick lah! Everyone keeps telling me it's not my fault cause i was sick but being sick shouldn't be an excuse for my poor performance...sigh i dunno lah...i guess it was a miracle i didn't faint on stage or something...anw by the time i got home after nat's mum gave me a lift, my fever rose to 38.2...okay, i know it's not very high but it was high enough to rob away my ability to stand up and walk straight...sigh if only i'm given another opportunity to dance this dance again i will definitely not screw it up like how i did on sat.

2005-05-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

yupp i'm finally here to blog after being chased by some people.but then again my life is so uneventful that i've nothing much to blog about.okay i shall recall what happened last wk..

nj had sports day on wed and it's during times like this when i start to miss st nicks.the sports day was quite pathetic.each housewas allocated a super small space...probably could only squeeze like 5 classes?everyone was pretty laggy and uninterested...haha and being anti-social i sat up in the canteen to mug but it wasn't very productive...well and no one caught me cause there were loads of other ppl in the canteen!i think everyone was just waiting for the gate to open.

Anw talking bout st nicks sports day.I rmb a few yrs ago we had our sports day at night!Everyone was super high, singing to the family dance song etc even though it was raining and the spot lights were so pretty!Even the ordinary sports day every yr is like 1000000000x better than nj's...at least everyone is involved.we have to do like mass cheers, family dance, line dance and sing the sports day song!haha after all these yrs, the only words i can make out from the song is "bu4 hou4 ren2!"of course the highlight of each sportsday is-->cheerleading!haha i think alot of ppl actually go back just to watch cheer.they're dman good...sigh i miss all the sports day rehearsal and the actual thing...haha to think that i always thought sports day was troublesome and irritating.i guess i only know how to treasure things after losing them?

Had dance interview on thurs and i guess i flopped...haha after stepping out of the interview rm i realised that i kept beating around the bush and nv really answered any questions...oh well i just hope that i didn't like throw all my face away...haha but me, peck, sara, yun hsiu and cheeko did have a good time laughing it off in the canteen after that =)

Went for ballet on saturday and we did pointe...i think my balance improved and i have finally found back the feeling of doing a double pirouette(??) !!!haha i'm so happy lah...but sunday i woke up with a aching butt and back...went kap to MUG with jialing, sihui, justin and edwyn...haha note the word "mug"...but in the end nothing much was accomplished and after i sat for about 1h plus we set off to j8 to buy some stuff *shhhh*haha what we bought is a secret. anw we did have a good time suaning jialing but i decided to protect her so i had to stop...so wasted...

Common tests are coming and i'm still super laggy...haven done trigo 2,3,4...chem boding 2...physics gravitational field and everything about econs...i got a D for my essay again...i'm seriously demoralised...i guess i'll have to turn to tuition again? *sigh*

2005-05-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

ice skating =)

Finally went skating with 7 of my dancemates, shun, peck, jasmine, wanzhen, cheeko, kendrick and yee shiang yesterday...lin rui came later but he just stood outside to watch.Anw for once in my whole life, i woke up punctually at 6am with my own effort! haha i was so proud of myself...but ya the stupid rain had to spoil my plans...the heavy downpour held me captive in my own house(is this the right phrase?)I couldn't find any foldable umbrealla around the house at all despite my efforts of trying to hunt high and low for it...so in the end i was still late...super pek chek...Ate hotcakes for breakfast...yummy!haha and we tried to mug abit before skating but in the end i only did like 1 pg of physics and knocked over my own cup of milo.

i was quite happy also cause i finally learnt how to skate properly with maybe abit of speed?haha it was so fun when shun dragged me and we were going quite fast...Anw i fell down twice...first time while trying to chase after cheeko to seek revenge cause he kept pulling my hair and hitting my head...therefore lesson learnt : We should all be peace loving people so we can make the world a better pace to live in.WORLD PEACE! =) the second time i fell cause i tried to go too fast and before i knew it 'piak' i was on the ice...skated for about 3h plus 4h before we left around 4pm.i was so tired that i fell asleep on 410 while going home...haha so embarrassing cause i used to secretly laugh at those ppl who sleep on the bus...i guess i'm getting my retribution...

school was bad today though...kept falling asleep so in the end i decided to pon physics lecture cause i knew i would probably just end up slping there again...anw nat asked if me i wanted to do the indian dance again for dunno what performance in 2wks time so ya i agreed...sigh it means that i have 2wks to get rid of my big fat tummy...tell me how is it possible man...*faints*

2005-05-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

last wk

oh well been too busy and lazy to update my blog...had college day rehearsals on wed and thurs and they ended pretty late...like almost 8...Went for dinner at black canyon with peck shun sara jingting jasmine alicia and ruizi after the reahearsal on wed...the food was pretty good and it's so so cheap...like 5.50 for the main thing plus drink and ice-cream,even cheaper than macs lah...went home straight on thurs to rush my pi and some hw but fell asleep halfway...i was so tired alr...the stupid rehearsals practically drained me of all my energy so much so that i kept falling asleep during lectures and tutorials on thurs and fri...it has been a long time since i dozed off during lessons.

Had econs test on fri and i was totally lost...my weakest chapter so far is chap3 and the stupid essay had to be on that *grrr* I was so demoralised cause i only managed to write 1/2 page when all my other classmates managed at least a 2...Ended sch at 12.30 and went to watch kingdom of heaven as well as to pool...i feel so not intellectual cause i couldn't really understand some parts of the movie and overall i thought it was quite boring...maybe it was the cinema's fault...j8's cinema is so so so freakingly cold...

College day on sat...i guss our performance was well recieved as concluded from the amount of applause we got...and i learnt how to draw the eye thing!!!haha and the best thing is that some ppl complimented me for my good drawing skills*claps*i was shocked but quite proud of myself at the same time =) i still rmb how i screwed up so badly last last fri when we were trying to learn how to do the make-up...but shun took like 1/3 of the time to draw as compared to me so i was really inefficient...haha nvm i'll improve on that in the future! Anw saw jason,hasan and adeline today after such a long time! so glad that they came back =)

Sunday was spent in bukit timah also...supposed to meet my grp at kap at 11 to do gpp...but guess what..i was 3h late!!!haha overslept to bout 12plus before calling jialing and i fell asleep again promptly after i hung up...i was so tired...mugged for awhile at kap after discussing the ggp ,did 8 physics mcqs(which i didn't know how to do 3/8 of it) before we headed for beautyworld to pool...i feel so pathetic cause i was so unproductive and i'm going skating tmr...this weekend was meant to be a "catch-up on my hw"weekend but it failed terribly...haha and jialing and justin were suaning me during dinner just now"so sweet..i think i've got diabetese(is it spelt like that?)"...oh well...anw then headed home with justin again and we talked about my pampered dog on the bus...i guess my dog's really interesting...the dog that needs to eat de-boned chicken rice...

I think i better sleep now...dun wanna be late again tmr...waking up at 6 to go je to mug...haha even earlier than the time i wake up to go sch...wonder how am i gonna do it...